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Quilt, will lessen.
Originally Posted by fivealive
(Post 1183262)
Hey thanks guys for all the support but it's only been one day and I had the worst night sleep of my entire life, or at least that what it felt like. The guilt was so overwhelming and not to mention the sweaty skin. I do have the support of my spouse but that only made me feel like I was such a self pitying, sad person, so when does it get better? 2nd day of my new life! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hi everyone, this is my first post and second day on my road to a alcohol free life. I am an alcoholic, there I've said it out loud for the second time in my life. I'm here because I choose to live and discontinue killing myself and the love of my partner. My partner of 17 years has been patient through my denial years, 4 to be exact, but day by day I feel the hurt I am causing her and myself. This is the first time I have seeked any kind of help. After finding your site and surfing around I felt comfortable enough to take it to this step, because I don't think I can do it on my own. I am a 47 year old woman and enjoy a lot of things that alcohol gets in the way of like hiking and backpacking. These things have slid to the back burner because alcohol has slid to the front. I think people would call me a functioning alcoholic (not a very good one) because I don't miss work over olcohol, at least physically. I'm there in body, but i'm sure you all know a clear mind does not accompany the body when you are drinking 1 and 1/2 or more liters of wine 4 days out of the week. Because I drink behind my partners back on nights I go to college at least my weekends are sober, so really my best day of the week is Monday. Well I can write alot more, but for now I would just like to say I commit to a sober life, one day at a time and any incouragement you can give me will be greatly appreciated. Thank-you hope3 I posted this because I can tell you it certainly does get better..........I can't even imagine going back to the quilt---distance------and hiding...Life with my lover is so much more... I wish you and your partner the best, Hope3........ |
It will get better when you are able to really let go and let it get better. I would suggest trying some benedryl to help with the anxiety you may feel and help with sleep a little bit or you can go to your doctor and be honest about your drinking problem and he can maybe give you something to help. Every day it will get a little easier one day at a time but it will get better and you will be so much happier in all aspect of your life I promise you that. Keep being strong and let yourself be self pitied and sad if it helps you feel better do whatever it takes just DONT drink... |
Welcome to SR Five. You will find the experience strength and hope you need here for sure. Remember, take what you like and leave the rest. Peace, Levi |
Five Alive keep up the good work! I, too, am a newcomer. Have just made a week without a drink, and it feels really wonderful. I'm having issues with sleep too. The first couple nights I barely slept a wink for all the tossing and turning. Last night I slept for a solid 4 hours and it was great. Funny that even with the lack of sleep, I awoke feeling truly rested-- can't say that about my drunken days. So, hopefully, as your body adjusts, your sleep will normalize. I wish you the best, God Bless. |
welcome to SR fivealive. It takes time for use to heal and we need to give ourselves time and not be distracted. Just keep focused on abstinence one day at a time. Kevin |
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