Some help for a newbe
 

A little over a year ago my addiction almost killed me; I was able to go sober for a few months. Then I started using off and on, I was doing really well but this week I realized that I have been more on then off.
I want to quit so bad, I want to be ok. I've always had a hard time, the drugs seamed to make things better. I don’t want to get to that point that almost killed me again but I am also scared that with out them I wont get up and do what needs to be done.
I have always fought this battle alone, and I have always lost. I can not afford to lose it this time.
Forums are totally new for me, so is saying that I have a problem. I am not in denial; I have always felt that it is a personal problem that causes too much pain for those around me, its better they just don’t know so I don’t tell them. I am one day sober, I don’t know if I will make it to the next. But any help and advice would be so greatly appreciated. Like I said, this is my first time ever getting involved with a forum and I have know idea if I am going about it the right way.

thank you.

Welcome to SR.
You will find a lot of info and support here.
You will find a lot more info and a deeper support at meetings.

Even if we could do it alone, why fight a battle alone when there is help?
Work smart, not hard. The support and help that can be gained from a NA meeting is beyond measure. Forums do ok but a face to face meeting gets things done even better.

Hi Wind,

Welcome!

Please know that you are not alone with your feelings. We are all here because we have a problem with addiction and try to support each other on this journey.

Keep posting and believe that you can do this!

Good luck on your recovery journey. You have made the right choice by being honest with yourself and posting here - there is so much support here at SR!!

:c031: Thanks for sharing part of your story!

Welcone to SR!

Welcome to SR! Glad you found us. This really is a great place. I hope you will stick around, read a LOT, and keep posting. We're here for you!

:Val004: Wind.....
How are you???? Welcome to SR, Please keep posting and reading, the support is unreal, we all care and yanno what?!?! YOU CAN do this!!!!! Stay strong!!!!!!
Liss