Class of December 2021 Part 2
 

Last part here:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...rt-one-20.html

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Thanks Dee :)

Wise words Suze, thank you. Your story echoes mine. Years ago I would never dreamed of drinking at home. It just wasn't the 'done' thing. Then it became 'normal'. Although my drinking was far from normal.

Thanks for everyone's thoughts and stories. It helps to know we are not alone in this. Went to a meeting. Was ok. So tired too which doesn't help things. Hopefully better sleep tonight. At least it will be better than being in a drunken stupor.
Night all x

I just got lost! lol

Thanks Scott for the congrats on day 5 but that’s not my # it’s FFs! x

Oh I am still dealing with this cold, can’t breathe.

And oh I am still dealing with an older man on here but I message him as a friend, which he agrees with but he’s been mean a lot lately so I need to end that again. He’s not helping me and is now harming me.

Other than that I’m back to chicken soup.

Kitten ~ that might be something you may wish to talk to Dee or Anna about. :hug: s
Stick close to us here on the thread....we are always here for you honey xxxxx

Hi KC
my advice remains the same as it was last time.

Use the ignore function here on SR
Go no contact elsewhere.

The solution is entirely in your hands, y'know?

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Sorry Kittencat, I must have read my notes wrong. I’ll get it right next time!

Thank you xxxxxxx

Just woke up from a drinking dream. It was the stuff of pure fantasy. I was drinking beer slowly in a bar making pleasant conversation with the bartender.

Reality; I'd be getting ********** fast alone in my room making insane reddit posts.

Relieved to have woken up sober Day 6.

Home and in bed! We won! Looking forward to the next 2 nights at home. I love watching the boys, but it does wear me out about traipsing after them all over the state, lol.

Goodnight all! 💜 :grouphug:

Morning all

Kitten-that sounds unpleasant. I'd be using the ignore button too.

FF-congrats on day 6

Citrus - I hope you enjoy your 2 days rest. you are so busy with sporting events - I hope you get some you time over the next few days :)

Great post calmself thank you :)

Day 15. I woke in the night with sheer relief I didn't drink last night. And this morning too it's great to be clear headed. Yesterday evening was just difficult, as there will be many more such evenings. Thanks for all the help on here. My mind was full of thoughts of events and situations coming up - pure AV. A family member has just opened a pub - oh please come and see us, pop in and have a drink etc. It was all in my head yesterday -yes I want to go and see them and support them. It looks odd me not having been in. BUT I don't want to go into a pub. When everyone around me will be drinking. I have no business in a pub. what to do? Christmas coming up too although that's just the 2 of us and I've had many sober Christmases including last year. I'm in control of my environment etc so that's ok.

Hope everyone has a good day.x

Another monthly class for me. Going to taper off for the next 2 days. The withdrawal symptoms aren't too bad besides shaky hands and intense anxiety. I will check back in here after my taper.

What happened WL?

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Welcome WL.

Anxiety attacks and the thought of another Christmas alone. I just needed an escape from my thoughts which never turn off.

I read the other thread. I hope your friend might still be allowed in provided van status and test results.

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Good morning everyone!

Day 15, another morning feeling fresh and rested, I just love that so much. Congrats Citrus and RAL on day 15! Calmself, amazing to work to be on day 33 now! And welcome back WL, we have all been where you are, one day at a time.

Work has been intense, our important client is still in town, each day ending with dinner out at nice restaurants and expensive wines. I volunteered to be the one driving our guests to and from their hotel, and I’m so happy that I can do that now, in the past that would never have been possible: I would have had a few drinks even before dinner so that it looked like I was drinking the same amount as everyone else, and then I would top it off with a few more drinks by myself when I got home. I’m so grateful I’m not in that obsessive loop anymore!

im here also on day 15 x not much to write about.

RAL, Erratic and QWA, Congrats on day 15!!!

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Welcome back WL!

Happy December 15th! Our winter weather merry-go-round continues. Today we are looking at 55F, rain, possible thunder storms and perhaps a tornado. Not exactly normal for Western Wisconsin. Thankfully most of the snow is gone from the driveway so the ice shouldn’t be too bad when the cold comes back tomorrow.

Welcome back WL. I’m glad you joined us.

FF - Congrats on Day 5.

Citrus - I love traveling but its always nice to be back home and sleeping in my own bed.

Calm - congrats on Day 32.

RAL, QWA, and Erratic congrats on Day 15.

RAL, I have a bit of a dilemma also with a pub. I was invited to meet some old college friends some I haven’t seen in 40 years and of course its at a bar. I’m not worried about drinking but it still feels a bit uncomfortable. Not sure if I’m going yet or not.

QWA - I could have written that exact statement. God that was exhausting.

Have a great day everyone.

Hello

Day 11 for me, things still in that pink cloud place. No desire to drink right now. QWA that was my life also, pre-drink, drink, post-drink, pass out.

Congratulations to everyone as we move closer to holiday season. I think I've passed my biggest holiday test when I had my family over last weekend and didn't drink, although my wife is working boxing day and new years so I'll be home alone (not even considering going anywhere this year to make sure I reduce that temptation). But it can be tempting even sitting at home and knowing what friends are up to.

Anyway, have a great day and keep up the good work.

Good morning. I am super slow moving today. I made coffee after the boys left for school and went back to bed to read. I had been making good progress on laundry, and boy do we have a lot with 3 teenage boys... but the rack that I hang all of the shirts on collapsed this morning. I stacked all of the shirts on a chair.... probably over 100 of them and decided well to h*ll with laundry today! Lol. Hubby will have to help me with it all later.

Scott I am with you on sleeping in my own bed. Oldest was on a travel bball team this summer and I spent more weekends in a hotel than at home. I was sober the whole 9 weeks and on the way home from the last weekend I bought beer. How dumb. I have to be vigilant when the pressure is off. Kind of like the next 2 days, I am a little frightened of AV today and tomorrow. But ODAAT.

Off to read a bit more. I'll stick close today. Hope you all are having a wonderful day! ❤

goodnigt x

Good night and sweet dreams dear Erratic. ❤

Day 22

Woke up with an infection/Sty in my right eye, looks like a jealous husband clocked me one lol

Managed to find a place yesterday to fix my damaged wheel, much cheaper than replacing the whole set lol

Got my mums medical appointments done, my younger brother arrives today and will take her home tomorrow, even went out and bought her more wine last night, was weird being in the liquor store but I survived ;)

Off to the hospital this morning, Was diagnosed with Crohns 3 years ago and have to get an Infliximab infusion every 8 weeks to keep that under control. Straight to my work Christmas function as soon as I'm done. Traditionally a huge drinking day - I work for an Irish software company and people are flying in from all over Australia and Asia to celebrate another successful year. Had our call with the CEO yesterday and we did very well so can imagine the bar tab is going to be a big one! Told everyone I have family in town so will be leaving early before things get too sketchy Lol.

Going to have a quiet weekend with my lady after I get rid of the extra family. My sons will arrive Sunday evening and stay during the week. Last day of work for a month tomorrow.

Welcome new members and keep it up everyone xxx

Dan

Thanks Scott, yes I am with you on the bar scenario. I have decided not to think about it. I am not going tomorrow or this weekend. Even if I have to feign illness so be it.

MPR-great result on getting through a family weekend. They ca be so difficult with history and memories.

Erratic - I hope you sleep well.

Citrus -enjoy your days off :) Think how great you will feel and how you can really enjoy the time to yourself when you are not drinking and are clear headed and focussed.

Dan-hope your eye heals soon. Stay strong at the works function and I hope you have an escape route. We are here if you need us. Just think how great you will feel in the morning when you wake sober.

I had another AV moment earlier. There was half a bottle of white wine in the fridge. A present for Mr RAL from someone-he drank half of it on Sunday and the rest has been in the fridge since then. It's my drink of choice. Sure that's partly what set me off last night and again the AV jumped out of its box. So I said ok Mr RAL please either drink it now or move it elsewhere. So he did. All sorted now. How crazy to think white wine in the fridge would not scream at me 'DRINK ME'. Best gone. And breathe.

Watching Impeachment about Lewinsky which is excellent. Then sleep. Good night all x

Good job on the wine RAL. Congrats MPR on 11 days and Dan on 22. Sounds like a good plan Dan.

Day 3. I will not drink today. Keep going, everybody.

- stay strong,
Adam

The further you get from you last drink the calmer you'll become. I have found a practice of mindful meditation and mindful breathing has helped calm my racing thoughts, especially when I'm trying to sleep. Hang in there. It gets better.