Class of March 2020 Part One
 

this is the support thread for everyone who wants to quit drugs, alcohol or any kind of addiction this month of MARCH 2020

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-pt-2-a-9.html
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Well, my first class was March 2018 and here am I two years later. First attempt went 7 weeks. Tried again in January of 19, made it three. I'll be six weeks this time next week and feel good. Very few panic attacks. AV is still strong between 5-7pm. I'm usually good once I eat a nice meal. Craving sugar which is really weird for me. I can finally eat bread without feeling tired which is nice. Saving $50 a day isn't bad either. I failed both times last time but I'm just doing one day at a time and have eliminated a major trigger (boredom) never bored bore, new job and dog take care of that. Anyway I'm Kevin, welcome March 2020 folk.

Somewhere I read that March is really the best time to start a resolution. I'm not sure if this is true but dive on in all and give it your best shot.

Welcome rmeatgt350 :)

thanks for your great thoughts BeKind :)

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i am in for march x

Thanks Dee.

Hi Erratic. I'm in too. I'm embarrassed to be in yet another class but I need the support so there is no place for shame or embarrassment I think :(

Day 4. I keep getting to day 10,20,30 even 60 and then drink. I have to stop this cycle. I know why I drink -I'm not miserable, unhappy, hiding something. I just like the feel of it. I get to a point where Ive had so many sober days and then the craving hits. Instead of fighting it or even TRYING to fight it I just tell myself I'm an adult, I want a drink,I'll have a drink. So I drink.

When I stop drinking I feel so great and want to be sober more than I want to drink. BUT in that key moment 2,3,4 weeks sober want to drink more than I want to be sober so I drink. It's a split second thing. I have had long periods of sobriety before and have had those moments where I am fighting and discussing with AV and have done urge surfing etc and working through them and NOT drank, gone on to have years of sobriety.

But now, over the last few months it feels different. There is no doubt, negotiation or even consideration. I just throw it all away and drink in that moment which then leads to weeks of every night.

What do I do differently this time? How do I tell myself in THAT moment that drinking is not a good idea. I mean I know it but the AV is so powerful.

I tend to go on holiday regularly and tell myself well you'll drink on holiday so why not now? So I have cancelled all my holidays booked for this year. I am not going anywhere but staying home and focusing on my sobriety. Obviously I need to do more but for now getting through each day.

Starting to feel a bit better today. Sorry for long post just need to write down my mindset. Thank you.

Welcome RAL and erratic :)

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Thanks Dee, I'm in for March.

Welcome Reid :)

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Thanks Dee.

Hi Reid

Thanks guys, St.Patrick's day/weekends have been unfortunate relapses in the past so I'm very aware of that time around the 17th of this month now.

I'm happening to be going to Edinburgh for the weekend that weekend this month now over for a friend's birthday so will be on guard :)

Hitting three weeks tomorrow. I've found it really straight forward, my sober muscles are strong. My danger is when I get to three / four / five months etc, I start thinking I'm ok and start wanting to drink like a normal person.

Hopefully I have realised by now that going back to drinking is bad news, there's nothing for me there, so I will be able to resist going forward. I feel 100% sure I have learnt now. As my sponsor said to me last week, "you keep trying", as in I keep trying the drinking thing again despite deep down knowing it's a waste of time and nothing has changed.

I truly love being sober more than I want to drink.

Don't apologize. Many, like me, are in your exact same position. The last time I made it to 40 days we went on a trip and it was the same thing. I felt great, had a pleasant few days and on day three ordered a beer with dinner and the monster was back full force. I guess we just have to remember no matter how good we feel, and no matter how easy everyone makes it look, it isn't for us. Maybe that's a bad thing OR MAYBE it's a good thing. I guess i/we have to tell ourselves it's never just one, and it's never just one night. As much as we may "like" that first fun evening, by the seventh we will hate it and ourselves again.

Hello lovely March People. :) :hug: s

Honestly, for me the answer is a program of recovery that we keep in place. Before I had that, I could be sober for a few weeks or months at a time, but then I also succumbed to the 'I am fine now, I can have a drink' voice that interrupted my life.

I need my recovery books and I need to be here every day. I think I have missed about 5 days on SR in 5 years....and I can tell you those were not good days. Left to my own devices in the middle of a crisis, I was at risk.

Anyway, love to all of you. :) :hug: s xx ❤️❤️

And nice to meet you Kevin. :) ❤️❤️

I plan on March 2020 being my first sober calendar month in 3 years. Feeling confident. I've made my big plan and am ready to recognize my AV when it strikes.

Hello classmates,

Well i am here, was in January class got to day 38 and disaster yesterday.

so it's back to dreading the next week as i know what is probably coming with regards to anxiety.

That sounds awesome dear ff!! :) :hug: s

And hello dear Cynix. With you every step. :hug: s xx

Welcome to everyone joining this group. Welcome to new members and to those who are here, trying again to make this work. It's hard to come back and face a new beginning, but giving up is not an option. :)

Hi everyone in day 11 and also aiming for march to be full calendar month after messing up in February

Hello dear Tink and Reid. :) :hug: s

Good morning dearest Anna. :)
I LOVE what you just said.... :hug: s xx

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Do you all have room for one more here in the Class of March?
have been drinking in the evenings, and I’m just sick of it.
As they say, the spirit is willing, but the flesh is week.
1. There is no booze in the house.
2. I’m going to change the route I drive home from work to not go by the liquor store.
3. I’ve started journaling again.
4. I’m going to post here in the evening when I would be drinking - just to check in.
5. I’m getting back into my gym routine.
6. I’m not deeply religious, but I’ve started praying, or meditating, or talking to God.

That’s what I got for now. Talk to you all later.

You got this, sobertoday

Onward together dear Sobertoday54 :hug: s :) x ❤️

Agreed Venuscat. Things get better from here. Thank you.

Thank you Freedomfries

Great to read so many positive posts from everyone, you're all such a great help and hopefully we can all support each other.

Had the most productive Sunday I've had in weeks. Woke clear headed, finally through the fuzziness. Feel tired now but looking forward to being clear headed tomorrow too.

I looked in a different mirror today in sunlight and was shocked at how bad I look. Puffy, red face, dry skin, red lines, just awful. I've really let myself go without truly realising it. Anyway, onwards and upwards.

Absolutely they will....I like your plan. Solid. And you can add to it along the way. :) Sending huge hugs and love. :) xx ❤️

RAL honey, I so know how that feels. :hug: s
It will all get better now....literally every day all of that stuff will go revealing the lovely healthy and happy you underneath. :) :hug: s xx ❤️

Thanks Venus xx