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Someone push me to go to the OA meeting. Really scared and dreading it and anxious about finding the door (it's a church but not in the church and I have never been there obviously and hate walking into a room full of people I do not know.) Ugh... |
You are on the way right....there maybe.....and if you are not, that is OK. We are going to do this...every step. :hug: |
Originally Posted by Neoo
(Post 6915926)
Thanks each and everyone :grouphug: I have increased my Lexapro from 10mg to 20mg a day yesterday as I have been really bad lately and it seems to settle me down a good bit. I will go the docs this week and let them know as I think new relationship hit me like a ton of bricks and now my Dad. This is an email I got from his wife today - Dear Andrew...just got in from the shop with your dad . Took Lucy a walk on the fells and now home for tea. Your email made your dad cry . We have a long battle ahead and your dad knows that but don't give up on him . As I said we have a long way to go and every situation is different . Let,s all think your dad will be OK . I know I am thinking that . It will be a **** time but the specialist says to take every step as it comes . He said to be aware of the worst scenario but not to worry about it as it may not happen which I think is the sensible approach .Obviously we cry alot and it is a very frightening time and your dad needs you as he is now . You are always welcome to stay with us as is Sarah. Love as always Elaine XXXX Dad sends his loveXXXX I am glad you are making sure your meds are right....please check in with your doc though love, can't hurt. :hug: Proud of you. ♥♥ |
I’m sitting in my car, in the church parking lot. Fifteen minutes early. Apparently it’s only a ten minute drive and apparently I like to be early. Jitters. |
It’s pouring out and I don’t know which building it is or where the entrance is. I need Divine guidance on this one. Going to meditate and hopefully get an answer. |
Oh. And I didn’t bring an umbrella. |
SFL- there has been 4 people (3 women) who have shatred their secretive battle with food. Can you think about it in the same way you approach you recovery here? I do not know if that makes any sense- but you have a decent recovery time- so obviously you are a strong person. Support to you. Neoo- prayers to you and your dad. Such emotions run high and can be overwhelming- so to be mindful and calming yourself is a good way to cope- obviously not booze. Be sure to keep your meds monitored with a doc. |
Look at you, Sunflowerlife, showing how it's done... you are going to fly on the wings of an eagle. I feel so much love and pride for you right now :hug: |
Thanks Guys Love Each and Everyone of You :grouphug: It is life and these things happen just stay strong :grouphug: I was on my way out the door to the pub yesterday when my mother stopped me and said think about this. I realized why throw all this sober time away to wake up in the morning wanting more and everything feeling so much worse. I decided to increase meds and go see the doc instead... Love to All and Goodnight :grouphug: |
Checking in for 24. |
Originally Posted by venuscat
(Post 6915519)
Yes darling and good morning I love you....I still need antibiotics, but I can walk today. It's wonderful. I know you relate to that honey......how are your knees? :hug: ♥♥ Hope you get to the doctors tomorrow. Take care cuz I care. :hug: |
Originally Posted by erfra7
(Post 6915675)
Hi I don’t know is this will make sense to you guys but I think my journey is taking me in a new path more spiritually. lately I let go of a lot of garbage from inside of me I’m more a peace with myself . Love being sober , love being here, learning to love myself accept myself for who and what I’m. Love and hugs to all. 24 more for this hopeful soul. |
Thanks guys. Just leaving the meeting. It was good. They recommend going to six total before deciding if OA is the right group. I found that interesting. Glad I went and hoping to check out another meeting this week. I am feeling hopeful even though I did not abstain today. I had a small binge when my husband got home. No idea why but I was probably triggered by going through old letters and belongings from when I was at one of my lowest points 11 years ago. I threw out a bunch of cards even ones from a toxic ex I didn’t realize I still had. Love you guys. Hoping for a better day tomorrow. |
:hug: Sunflower. Kenton, May you always be able to see the Light. :) Love to all and prayers, too. Sweet Sober Dreams, Dear Ones. |
Checking in, because I entered the danger zone this evening for no apparent reason. Sigh. My AV’s screaming as I’m feeling crappy, lonely and anxious, like something bad is about to happen. I can’t stand my mood swings. I bet I’m gonna be full of joy again tomorrow, but right now I’m feeling so worthless, I can’t stop thinking about the unthinkable. I’m too afraid to do anything and I hate that I’m too afraid. Do we all have to live anyway? I hardy have any contact with my parents. No close friends. Well, there’s my boyfriend, but I’m like a dark cloud in his life, always bringing him down. Eh I’m gonna get through this. I won’t drink tonight. Sorry for a downer... I’m so SICK of being like this, but posting helps a little. 24 more please. Or at least a couple of hours till I feel better... |
Glad the meeting was good, Sunflower! You’re very brave. :hug: |
We let our heads take us to some strange places....we know that this is not the truth....your boyfriend adores you....you are rocking this....we are proud of you....you put in your final artwork for uni.....your mum is coming to visit....far out....could you be doing better??? :hug: |
Thank you Venus. I know you’re right, I know you’re right, I just can’t control these crazy thoughts telling me it’s all lies. I’m so paranoid and confused I’m literally shaking. I need to find a distraction and wait till the monster’s gone. |
Deep breaths...and where is your cat? A few sips of water and know you are not alone....the panic will pass. I promise. ♥ |
Originally Posted by Neoo
(Post 6916011)
Thanks Guys Love Each and Everyone of You :grouphug: It is life and these things happen just stay strong :grouphug: I was on my way out the door to the pub yesterday when my mother stopped me and said think about this. I realized why throw all this sober time away to wake up in the morning wanting more and everything feeling so much worse. I decided to increase meds and go see the doc instead... Love to All and Goodnight :grouphug: Dear Suze, so hope you feel better soon my dear friend:Val004: Thank you Dee, 24 more for me please. Congrats milestoners. Just off to Zedland now....or actually having just eaten most of a tub of Hagen daz, oops..it going to be more like an ice cream coma :dee:dee Much Love to all, Love you, SP :Val004::Val004::Val004: |
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