Class of July 2013 Part 15
 

The last part:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...t-14-a-26.html

I actually got really stressed out today as well, Crois.
Think I might have overdone the ice coffee.
Felt like I did one night when I was detoxing.

That's no good. Yes, I had to give the coffee away. I love it, but my body responds badly to it now. One more thing I attribute to my alcoholism.

I can't afford to screw around with anything now. That's why the healthy eating thing has helped level me out so much.

I hope you are feeling better today.

A little, I guess I'm starting to feel the stress of being unemployed soon.
I slept fine but still feel the stress today.

It IS stressful Bob. For sure.

My wife says I just need to do my part and let God handle the rest.

I know getting up off my butt and getting something done towards getting a job was the hardest thing for me. And trying to stay positive.


Its very hard when you have limited pennies.

Yeah, I keep wondering how the job market around here is going to be.
It's always on my mind and it's beginning to take it's toll on me.
Even with some money coming in the form of separation pay and a retirement account that I will be getting, then unemployment as well.
I still feel lost and overwhelmed.
It's weird, some days I feel just fine and other days I'm super stressed out.

Yes. Can understand. Did you contact the over 50 agency Leshar suggested?

That might get the ball rolling a bit?

I think that might be a Canada thing, Crois.

I know it's hard to feel positive when it feels like everything is too much. I've been there, but I knew if it let it crush me, I'd have no confidence left to get a job. It's very hard, and I definitely didn't outline how bad it got here.

It's good you have your wife to support you, and talk to though. I'm sure you'll be able to come up with a plan together.

Bob I'm sorry you are feeling stressed matey . Things like that can eat away at you . You will be ok , I promise . You have great family support .
I know when I'm lying awake in bed ( like now ) and I can't sleep , I get busy brain. Things always feel worse at night time .

Time to pick up the ipad and chat to you guys and do some scrabbling xxx

So true! Wonder why that is? Seems like I am most anxious/worried/stressed at night when I am trying to fall asleep. I will start feeling bad for getting short with my daughter during the day or for not not playing with her enough, etc. At least I don't have the drinking regret, though. That was always the worst.

Just remember, Bob, nothing is quite as bad as it was when we were drinking our lives away. No one can take your sobriety away from you and as long as you have that, anything is possible :)

You ladies need to try some Chamomile tea at night. Have a wind down period before the lights go out.
Yes Ladybug, despite this set back,I am thankful I'm not drinking anymore.
And tomorrow will be 13 months.

Thinking of you Bob, try not to worry too much.

My mood is low and unmotivated again, it's frustrating. And I even have another role in a low key community play. Someone dropped out and a guy who was in our play put my name forth. I should be more excited, I don't know why I'm not. It's a comedy, and I play a sassy wise-cracking mother. I'm not very good at doing an American accent, I'm worried about that. All the others just speak in their regular Canadian accents, but I'm not from here, I still have a Northern Ireland accent really. I've been youtubing accents today, sort of New York is how I'd like to do it, but I'm not very good!
In the play I just finished I did a middle class English accent which was easy for me.

I'm still in my nightie and haven't showered today, I don't know why I can't seem to be enthusiatic about things, guess I'm lonely again.
Still going to AA meetings, but still not sure about that whole process.
Hope everyone is doing ok. Bob, I do hope something appropriate turns up for you.

Hey Leshar, I think it's ok to rock your nightie for a few days....you've been so busy and hectic, some downtime is in order! Although I must admit, the moment I put off a shower, it reminds me of my drinking days. :(

I've been trying to meditate lately to still my mind and help with concentration (which I really didn't realise apparently can help retrain your neurons and help you focus on things outside of your meditative state?). I thought it would be fine to sit in one spot for 20 mins. Apparently it is a challenge for me!

Leshar,

I can do one hell of a wicked Bawston accent.
Even New York.....forget about it. :)

Thanks for thinking about my woes. I'm doing ok, actually thinking about having some time off. I'm beat from moving our shop equipment onto trucks.

G'day Bobster ,always nice to see you here when I wake up :-) xxx

I hope you day went well,snoozums. :)
I'll be moving more of my job onto a truck today.
Looking forward to a long weekend,Labor Day. How ironic.lol

Congrats on 13 months Bob


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All heading into our 2nd sober year .xxxxxx