It doesn't, does it I wish I knew what would help Nemesis. I'm shy |
breakfast was the worst vodka and OJ on ice to soften the real slicing grapes because they roll around the plate when i have shaky hands and making small talk when i really just wanna puke and go to bed just pay and leave please i've had it with you and me especially me no more of that noise because mornings are fine and i enjoy people they're not so bad when i feel good and sometimes they're quite interesting even mindless tasks are better when i make them mindful and loving |
Company just left Managed not to drink but Wanted to so bad |
dreamt i was drinking wine last night and said why am i drinking this wine it's over-rated even if you are not a crazed alcoholic think of the money saved because you no longer drink even "cheap" stuff dreamt i dropped acid and even tripping i was anti-alcohol |
SR is my booze it helps me wind down and get ready for snoozeville |
Having a bad time Don't know what this is about This sickness rages It won't go away Whatever I do or don't All I am is fake Emptiness inside The earth sparkles with new rain Only middle ground Just that would be fine Yesterday I lay in bed Tried to shut it out My strength is waning I've been stuck here for a while I am getting scared Sorry for this one, Friends |
Else that's why we're here To share the burden and load Don't do it alone What I've learned sober Is to do less enduring And more enjoying You sound lonely there Struggling with your houseguests Unhappy and stressed I've learned to say no To people places and things That don't fill me up There's only one life We need to honor ourselves Comfort leads to joy |
House guests are like fish They all stink after three days Doesn't matter who Not that they are bad Or that we are misanthropes Everyone needs their space My guests bought chocolate Cake that was to die for, I ate Too much, so sick now No will power It's amazing I ever quit Booze and cigarettes |
Tiptree I hear ya My isms know no limits Sweets are a struggle |
I am sorry, Else. Hate to see you suffering so-- Deadness lingering on. Wish that I could help-- Bear it up on my shoulders So you were not trapped. |
I had the deep blues Very early in my life Trapped in a dark well I woke up one day sun was shining, don't know why The darkness was gone I fear it's reprise Blue tentacles still linger Could grab me again Who knows, it happens A faulty neurotransmitter A demon attaches Again the long slog The forced march in concrete boots Naked affect, gone Would I fight again Or meekly give up that light So hard won, yet done Or hold on fiercely Like the new soul I am again Sober in the dark |
Why do we suffer when there is so much beauty? Chemistry is all. |
(((Tip))) keep up the fight Use your tools to stay alight Love yourself, stay bright |
unbelievable they might rescind my transfer i think i'll resign |
Yesterday I learned "We just don't have full time work." Promise rescinded. The news registered Like lead in my stomach Why did I trust them? Reminding myself That thy will not mine be done Seek the divine plan |
Sorry for your woes This work sh** so hard to take Yet must endure (hugs) |
i am open and honest and all it gets me are stabs in the back |
i try to trust but humanity disappoints i am so naive |
fighting over me or a conspiracy to get me to resign |
i work with assholes but i need the insurance and modest income |
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