Either way I hope it is something that makes u happy ilya, its sounds exciting!!!! X |
Hey Sparkos. I'm here, clear, and sober! |
Originally Posted by Sparkos
(Post 4608977)
Sparkos; present, correct and sober. Calichris; present, correct and sober. Dee74; Who knows!!!!!! Aarryckha; present, correct and sober. Discovery14; present, correct and sober. Biminiblue; present, correct and sober. Boobeary; present, correct and sober. Ilya; present, correct and sober. Michtizz; present, correct and sober. Enfinthechange; present, correct and sober. Looking4help123; present, correct and sober. Mr G; present, correct and sober. Kimsfriend; present, correct and sober. nonna11; present, correct and sober. Rosa84; present, correct and sober. FacingFuture; present, correct and sober. |
Mr F, even if you can't read this, I really do hope you're surgery is going well :Flower::sick |
Good day Marchers, I am more than half-way through my 11-12 hour day at work then comes dinner then I may take the evening off from tennis tonight I am exhausted from yesterday. May treat myself to a movie tonight or just read. Just one more night then I go back to home base tomorrow where I have little or no triggers. I pray MrF's surgery went well and pray you are all well too! Hugs, Chris |
Hi all. I just wanted to check in really quick. I did read the posts and I have responses I'll post later. I have issues with my upper back. Have for several years. It almost feels like a disk slips out of place and then moves back after it upsets the muscles. So I'm sitting on the couch with my loving 22 pound cat giving me love and hoping the muscle relaxer kicks in soon. I'll get back to you. Here's hoping that people are having a good (or the best they can) day. |
Originally Posted by Aarryckha
(Post 4609817)
Hi all. I just wanted to check in really quick. I did read the posts and I have responses I'll post later. I have issues with my upper back. Have for several years. It almost feels like a disk slips out of place and then moves back after it upsets the muscles. So I'm sitting on the couch with my loving 22 pound cat giving me love and hoping the muscle relaxer kicks in soon. I'll get back to you. Here's hoping that people are having a good (or the best they can) day. |
I'm sitting out in my car waiting for a meeting to start. A wave of desire to drink washed over me and I just got in my car and drive here. Past the liquor store I have an account at. Past the bars I have so often drank myself into obliteration. It is day 33 for me. I am working the program. But yet the urge just hits me like mugger on the street and steals all my joy. Sigh. God get me through tonight. I do not want to drink. |
Originally Posted by KimsFriend
(Post 4610037)
I'm sitting out in my car waiting for a meeting to start. A wave of desire to drink washed over me and I just got in my car and drive here. Past the liquor store I have an account at. Past the bars I have so often drank myself into obliteration. It is day 33 for me. I am working the program. But yet the urge just hits me like mugger on the street and steals all my joy. Sigh. God get me through tonight. I do not want to drink. |
Feel better soon Aarry :) I hope you went in KF - noone needs to fight this alone :) D |
Originally Posted by Ilya
(Post 4608776)
Hello! Still here, still sober, still tired. I have one booklet made. Not the one I'm waiting on from the printer. I'll never do a project with this guy again. Why does no one take me seriously enough to just not procrastinate me?? I know not all men are like this but, why are some so caught up in overestimating their abilities that they don't even see what disastrous results take place?? And, he's been telling me that he's been losing work because of my project. Not my fault. And he kept telling me to calm down as well, when I asked really normal, cognitive questions. He's also insinuated that this is just how it goes, you know, because I must not understand. Turns out he has a nasty attitude and cannot make a deadline. Meanwhile, I have taken time off of work myself to catch up on this project. Because he pushed me down to the wire. And MEANWHILE, my parents, whom I do not speak to anymore, and who have been major scary triggers for me my whole life, are arriving in town today. To visit my sibling. Who lives very near. I have stated to my sibling that they are allowed nowhere near me. I do not trust that an incident won't take place, and everything else in my life is being held in such precarious balance at the moment. If my boundaries are not respected, I'm looking at one gigantic, jagged, drunk Jenga game. Friends, I'm in a battle right now. I am sorry I haven't had time to catch up with everyone else. I've been in this battle for a long while now. Try to keep focusing on the stuff you can do something about...and be brutal about the stuff thats out of your control...and try and let that pile be. Post here too for support. There'll be someone around :) welcome to Rosa and any other newcomers - and congrats on those hitting milestones today :) D |
Aarry, I hope the pain subsides quickly. :( KF, stay strong! You can beat it!!! Ilya, sending a big hug your way... Feeling cranky tonight, so I'm going to bed early. 'Night all... |
Thank you everyone for your words of support. I went to the meeting. The message was about how insane the thoughts of the suffering alcoholic can be. That in the face of losing it all, the alcoholic will still want to drink, the example of pure insanity. I needed that reminder. The reminder that I am not alone - just insane right now. But I do believe that I will one day be restored to sanity if I just keep working at it. I believe God sent me to that meeting tonight to help restore some faith. Because I have to believe. If I do not, then I have nothing left. So tonight I did not drink. One more night of sobriety under my belt. |
Day 50. Going to bed sober, but it wasn't an easy one. So. Many. Emotions. :gaah |
I hope tomorrow is better Bimini & Boobeary :) I really glad you went tonight KF :) D |
Originally Posted by biminiblue
(Post 4609168)
Ilya, you are in charge of only you. Keep repeating that if your family starts with you. I moved from the east coast to the west to put distance between myself and my family. I understand. I don't have any regrets other than my continuing to fret about it and argue with them. When I started leaving the conversation every time one of them started, it got a lot better. I had to detach from their behaviors completely and own my own life. You don't have to drink at it. Please don't; you are only hurting Ilya when you do. Find a way to make this situation work for you. My thoughts are with you - this is a tough one and I know you'll do the right thing. I am desperately trying to make it through this week and weekend. |
You have a right to say no to any contact Illya - I hope it doesn't come to that and I hope you have a good weekend. D |
Thanks. I unfortunately hope that they do something crazy to add to my case against them. It's the only thing that will help the restraining order. |
Although it will ruin everything I'm trying to have |
Just remember we're here. You're not alone :) D |
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