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Not surprisingly, I ended up drinking while I was on vacation. It was stupid to put myself in a situation where I'd either have to explain my issues (wasn't happening) or drink with people to avoid the conversation. I didn't get drunk, I drank too slow to get drunk yet enough to get a headache if I didn't alternate with water.. So, in the end what was the point of doing it at all? I was doing it to avoid having to explain myself if I didn't. I smoked a little too but turned down other things. I was not aware there would be any more than alcohol but I had driven 3 hours so I wanted to stay and try to relax. I had a feeling before I left that it was not worth the risk and that I was going to end up giving in.. sure enough i did. So its day one again and I have mixed feelings... Am I sure I can't just drink socially on certain occasions? If I know I'm not going to drive, and I pace and I drink water, what's the problem? But when I do that I begin to think, why do it at all? It doesn't taste all that great, I've learned to like drinking water, and a million things taste better than beer and other alcohol. If I don't like the taste and I don't want it's effects... Why do I feel like I have to do it in social settings where other people are doing it? *bangs head against wall* |
welcome back sonrisa :) If you can drink socially - and never lose control over how much you drink, and then never obsess over drinking more, or drinking when you're not - then more power to you. I suspect you wouldn't be here if you could do that tho? One of the things I never had as a drinker was self confidence - I *had* to go with the crowd, even if I knew where drinking would lead me. Sobriety gave me back my mettle - I make decisions now based on what I want and whats good for me, not on what the herd is doing. It seems like a such a big thing to say 'no, I don't drink' but it's really not. And you decide how much explanation you want to give, not your audience :) It does take change - I had to leave my group of drinking buddies behind - but the rewards are worth it. Support is pretty important tho I think, especially in those early days when saying no sounds like such a huge deal... I hope you'll consider following up with AA or some other kind of face to face support. D |
I have done this before. I quit for a week, then usually give in, thinking I'm drinking socially and it's no problem.. It's a slippery slope though. The social acceptance thing is just where it starts. It turns in to worse things over time. Sigh... *thinking out loud* what is the address of the place.... 10pm right? I'm going to treat it like going to the dentist.. haha |
There's a 7:30 meeting... my stomach is churning :( |
I think most people feel like that :) Let us know how you get on - good luck! D |
To keep my early fragile sobriety moving forward..I found new sober friends to enjoy Yes they were sitting in AA meetings..waiting for me.. Yes we do meetings and all sorts of interesting things outside of meetings...and no one needs to explain why we no longer drink. |
It sure got quiet on here.....:)...hope everyone is busy moving forward...:yup: |
Me too! :wave: D |
Carol and Dee: we're just all blowin' up the Class of June '11 thread! :) |
Lady......:) I've often said this is the thread everyone is tickled to leave. dee and I check it often in hopes a new member wishes our assistance or one of the Grads return to say Hi. Glad to know you are doing well...:hug: |
Glad to know you guys are keeping an eye out for us! |
Good to see you here too LLL :) D |
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