Yay!! Dori and Suz posting the same week!! That makes me a happy camper. I hope the slip didn't hurt too much honey, and I hope you o.k.

hugs

Dori I'm glad you are OK and determined to get back to "right living."

Here is a gift for you -- I took this last week off Little Cayman Island:

http://i132.photobucket.com/albums/q...secaymanLG.jpg

so pretty!!

Happy Saturday !

Nothin new really here.. just pluggin along.

The closing on the house had to be pushed forward a bit, I HATE the mortagage industry.. I can't wait for laws to change so that there is some oversight and they aren't just private businesses with no one to be accountable to. Gr!

Had my 16 week appt, all looks well so far. I can feel the baby move a lot now, so that's awesome and freaky at the same time.

I hope you guys have a great weekend!

xox

Dori, I would be interested in hearing to whole story when/if your ready to share. I like to know (as does warren) what triggers these slips to help me avoid one.

Ok Warren, I have to just say something. Chalk it up to another episode of tough love.. I almost reacted out of pure gut yesterday, decided to sleep on it, but my gut is the same.
Your posts lately have scared the crap out of me because the running theme to me has been “I am craving a drink.. I am still craving a drink, now I’m craving a drink”.
That worries me of course, but it is your life, and your recovery..
This last post, practically predicting ALL of our failure was a bit out of line for me. My first gut instinct was “how dare he even say that”, but I am probably just hormonal. I am frightened to say that what I’m reading here from you sounds like you’re setting up your own relapse. The mention of “at least we’ve all really tried” and “put a good amount of sober time in”… go against everything that MY sobriety is about. For me this was life or death, this was not a break, a test, a “am I strong enough to let it go for a while” thing, this is a life change, and I feel confident to say that I’ve made that change. I don’t know what your future holds, and I don’t know what your motivation for staying sober is ..
I wish you well, I care for you deeply.. and I know (hope?) you understand where I’m coming from.
In one of your posts out “there” you recommend newcomers coming here to read your story.. live the story you’d prefer to be read. I don’t know how helpful it would be for a newbie to come in here, honestly.

Sorry if I’m out of line.. I just had to say something instead of avoiding the Class 

Hey Jess just so you know, I am 100% forever sober with you sister! I will never be able to make anyone who hasn't been there understand the horror of that morning, but I will never again invite anything (aliens, demons or booze!) to possess my body.

I read the slip threads, the struggles, the excuses and rationalizations, and they just make me ever so grateful that I am not going through that.

I love you Dori! I am still interested to hear what happened because even though in my heart I know I will never falter, I have done a thing or two in my days that I knew I would never do. . .

Warren, I guess you are just in a better place to be compassionate or at least relate to the relapsers (I made up a word!) because you can see yourself going there. It is as hard for me to picture how one ends up drinking again as it is for me to picture what it might feel like to be a watermelon.

Would it help just insisting to yourself that this IS a forever thing, and that you WONT ever drink again? Or would that be like me telling myself I can fly over and over again?

Love you all <3

btw Jess, I am not sure if you had many cravings for booze in the early stages of sobriety, but when I was preggers, I never thought of booze and the smell of people drinking kind of repulsed me. So "Life" may have given you an extra advantage towards firmly planting yourself in sobriety lucky girl, who knows.

Oh I would never ever want Dori to feel unwelcome at all!! I wasn't even getting there. I love you guys, all of you, thick and thin.. sober or not. Dori, it sucks that you drank, but you're here and you're back and I bet you're stronger than ever and I know you can get through it with even more resolve than before. I believe in you, absolutey.

And Lisa, you're probably right.. I have no way of knowing what my strength would be if I wasn't pregnant. I do know however that the committments I have made to my sobriety outside myself (to hubby, family, employer) might stick me through if 'self' ever wavered. I know I would lose every single one of those parts of my life, and I would hope even without this little miracle in my belly that I would be standing just as strong.. but of course, there is no way of knowing that.

I never had a craving, not since I quit... but I think between all of us, the circumstances of our "last drink" are so varied that I can understand how we'd also vary in viewing a future drink/relapse/whatever. In one moment, drinking became akin to losing my job, my marriage and likely very soon, my life. I'm amost grateful that my low was as low as it was, because it always reminds me of where I could be again.. a place I never ever thought I would in my life.

<3

me too Jess, me too

Have fun!!

My Mac crapped out and is in the Apple hospital. I will give a better update later. My lip surgery rocked - can't wait to share pics.

IPhones are awesome but not enough to say everything.

awww phal, I forget your in our class cause your such a worldly guy on sr haha

glad to hear the surgery went well=)

Hello Classmates!!! I'm back from vacation and can I just say it was PARADISE!!!! I have some errands to run before the Holiday weekend but I'll be back soon to catch up on how everyone is doing =) Just wanted to let you know I was home safe and sound~

BTW, one of the best parts of the vacation? Being SOBER and remembering EVERYTHING! lol

XOXO~

Hi everyone,
Thank you Charles for that seahorse picture!!! That made my day..you are an amazing photographer. You should work for National Geographic or something!

I am still not ready to share my story of my three slips...I will be soon though..so stay tuned....but one of the reasons was ...I thought the house I was moving into was a sober house...well that was far from the truth..I was not prepared to be living with a few active alcoholic/addicts...and I became unraveled and lost my focus...not to mention there being no computer access so I lost one of my tools which was your guys support....
So June 1st is my anniversary. So I am a little over a month sober. What I did to get myself back on track is get an AA sponsor. She has 29 years sober. She wanted me to get a month in sober before we worked the steps. Tomorrow I am meeting her at Dunkin Donuts to start working step one. When I was attending AA I was only doing it half-arsed..not getting a sponsor, or working the steps...now she has me doing 90 in 90...90 meetings in 90 days! This will be the first time I ever 'worked the program' the way it was supposed to be done..so we'll see...
You all are doing such a wonderful job I am so very proud of everyone...it's not fair to you guys to be a member of this class anymore but I can be a 'friend of the class of december' or something!!!
But I will respond more to each of you later....I love each and every one of you...right now things around the neighborhood are crazy...there was a double homicide right down the street from where I live..in fact I heard the gunshots...so i'm trying to keep my focus and my serenity..when I am surrounded by chaos....
more later....hugs all around!!!!!