afraid
 

I've been trying to figure out why even if I am physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted I still force myself to stay awake. I used to think it was like when I was a child and would stay awake because I thought something exciting was going to happen and I didnt want to miss it. But now as an adult I realized that I can't/refuse to sleep at night because I'm afraid of something. Does anyone else feel this way? This is so frustrating, extremely unhealthy and not good for fighting depression :(

Have you tried meditation ? if your forcing yourself to stay awake stop forcing yourself explain the rationality of it to yourself write a journal exercise & tire the body my biggest trick to getting sleep while you choose to stay awake is old school but 5000% proficient

Read a book stay persistent reading and I promise you, you will fall asleep while trying to stay awake

Cut out caffeine, food & sugar maybe 2.5h before going bed