feeling sad today
 

i came and read the new posts - said a prayer for all the different situations -then began to think about my feelings about my family- i had the opportunity to be with two of my sons yesterday and their families and my dad (finally got a picture of all of us together (except my youngest AS was not there as he is locked up) although the gathering was a joyous occasion (baby shower for my oldest's first child) it brought up a lot of sad feelings because of physical and emotional distances within our family - i started out with this thread wanting to whine a little while but the more i try to put those feelings into words the more thoughts of gratitude come to mind - i did have the opportunity to be with two of my sons to celebrate a really wonderful blessing, i have my dad still with me, my AS is safe and sober (even though i do not know exactly where he is because he is now in the state system and he has been moved, but i don't know where) but i have to remind myself there were many times i didn't know where he was when he was "out there" and i certainly didn't know if he was safe - life can be hard at times but i keep falling back on God's promise "It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness." Lamentations 3: 22 - 23 Thank you for giving me a place to come and work through these feelings. Blessings to all of you -
debra

Hugs, litehorse, for just being you and sharing your stuff with the newcomers (and oldtimers too).

I find we have good days and bad, but the bad days are better than the good days used to be when I was stuck in my codependency.

Love you lots.

Hugs

Litehorse: I, too, can relate to family gatherings. I'd wait in hopeful anticipation because I love family gatherings. Then the crash would come when I couldn't even have light conversation with my adult children. I would then feel the hopelessness. Today I am working on turning hopeless into powerlessness.
Thanks so much for the post which leads me to look for little gratitudes instead of just seeing the sadness.

litehorse
Just wanted to give you a gentle hug and let you know that you are often in my prayers. I guess that we have to have some difficulties in our lives in order to truly appreciate our blessings. Thank you for sharing.

more gentle hugs

I wish I could turn my saddness into gladness...Maybe I just don't try hard enough. Your post was a learning post for me...that I can turn it into gladness if I try. The reason I clicked on the post was because I am feeling sad and obsessive over my dysfunctional family. All I want to do is sleep the day away so that I can go to work tomorrow to escape.
SAD....And I can't even stand my job right now...so I just feel completely hopeless...but, your post did help me.
Thank you

(((Litehorse))) - I'm glad you came here and posted. I've often found that when I get down, I end up back at gratitude and that helps. Sometimes, though, we just have our "in a funk" days. As ((Ann)) said, mine don't last nearly as long as they used to, since I've been in recovery.

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

thanks to all of you - just knowing we are never alone helps so much -
misssy - i will pray that you will find some relief from the sadness - trying to find even the smallest things to be grateful for helps me a lot - i have found that if i get started looking for even the smallest things other things become more and more evident to me and the hopelessness starts to fade -