We hadn't really established that we had broken up and he is not necessarily my co-worker. He is a subcontractor for the building. I have worked with his company before I even met him. They are actually employees of our condominium.

Thank you all for your advice and words of wisdom.
I know that this man has little - if nothing - to offer me but distress and manipulation and lies.
I just wish it could be easier or that I could be stronger.

Patience my dear. Don't be so hard on yourself. It took me over a year to decide that my relationship with my exabf was over for good. A lot happens in a year. None of us became strong overnight. It takes a lot of hard work and effort..........a whole lot of effort. You'll get there in due time............don't sell yourself short.

If he has a new GF he has moved on. He is your ex.. even if he is too weak to just come out and say it. He has moved on. He keeps you on the hook because it is what addicts do.

If you want to be strong in body, you execise. The same thing with recovery. If you want to be strong you choose to be so and work your recovery.
YOu make this choice the same as he made the choice to find a new GF or use drugs.

You can choose to be strong and choose recovery and work it, or you can continue obsess about and to use your DOC.. you X ABF.

(It WORKS if you work it, so work it your worth it)

What Loves says..
Even if you are strengthening your body with exercise, you don't get strong overnight.

However, if you quit you can lose the strength you gained.

Hi HK, I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. I will keep you & ytour ABF in my thoughts & prayers. As long as you are in love or love an addict it never gets easier.
Love,
Diane

Ah- typical addict behavior.
We spoke and he tried to act like nothing was wrong. Claims he tried calling me all weekend and I didn't answer. True but not to the dramatic extent he made it out to be.
He just kept denying anything I called him out on and lies, lies, lies.
He's been clean for 2 weeks- blah, blah, blah.
It's hard to look at someone who use to be the person you fell in love with and see a stranger.
I know he cannot give me what I need or deserve- so why does it hurt so badly?