My Nightmare
 

Well I didnt get the job that I went to the interview on Tuesday for. They wont hire me because I have a drug charge on my record. To top it off, I went to see my probation officer the same day and they arrested me in the office. The judge put out a warrent with no bond because Im behind in my payments. After 3 days he put a $5000 bond and my friend posted it. So Im back home today and I will post more later.

Hang in there Gwen. I wondered about working in a hospital with a drug charge, but I would never discourage you from trying. There is another job out there with your name on it.

Best wishes and prayers for you.

i agree with elana, don't get disencouraged, one door closed so there is another one somewhere waiting for you to get there. keep putting one foot in front of the other, and you WILL get there. something good has to come out of all of this, so just keep going. i'm so sorry about what happened, know that one day all of this will be over, and you can finally be free of all of this. still praying for ya.

just want you to know that i'm still so proud of you. you inspire me.

Hi Gwen

Hang in there

Have faith, Gwen. Things have a way of working themselves out.

Hi Gwen,
I agree, there IS a job out there for you. Saying a prayer tonight that you find it soon.Good luck!!

You poor soul, I so feel for you. Although I know these 'requirements' are put there for a reason, it so saddens me to know that it can affect a person who has turned their life around like you have. Please do not give up hope, there is a job out there for you that will change your life...keep striving for it...

Im keeping on going because I dont have much choice other than to keep going. This has been a really bad week and Im not in a good mood right about now. I will get out of it. Im grateful to be out tonight and to be at home. I have to go back in tomarrow to jail to do my weekends but at least I know I will be coming home. As far as the warrent goes, I posted the bond curtesy of my friend. I have a court date for May 11th to see what the judge will do with me from there. I will be doing alot of praying and hopefully find some side jobs to catch up on some of the payments. The $500 my friend put up for bond could have gone to the payments but its gone now. I paid a bondsman to get out of jail and dont get it back. So at least Im home for the night and can hold my kids tonight and sleep in my own bed.

I'm so sorry.. (((Gwen)))

There is something even better for you. Things always work out for the best.

Someone sent this to me in an email the other day-

OPENED AND CLOSED DOORS

We need to learn to thank the Lord for closed doors just as much as we
do for open doors. The reason God closes doors is because He has not
prepared anything over there for us.


If he didn't close the wrong door we would never find our way to the
right door. Even when we don't realize it, God directs our paths through
the closing and opening of doors. When one door closes, it forces us to
change our course. Another door closes; it forces us to change our
course yet again.


Then finally, we find the open door and walk right into our blessing.
But instead of praising God for the closed door (which kept us out of
trouble), we get upset because we "judge by the appearances." And in our
own arrogance, or ignorance, we insist that we know what is right.


We have a very present help in the time of need who is always standing
guard. Because He walks ahead of us, He can see trouble down the road
and HE sets up road blocks and detours accordingly. But through our lack
of wisdom we try to tear down the roadblocks or push aside the detour
signs. Then the minute we get into trouble, we start crying "Lord how
could this happen to me?"


We have got to realize that the closed door was a blessing. Didn't He
say that "No good thing will He withhold from them that love Him?"


If you get terminated from your job - don't be down, instead thank God
for the new opportunities that will manifest themselves - it might be a
better job, or an opportunity to go to school. If that man or woman
won't return your call - it might not be them, it might be the Lord
setting up a roadblock (just let it go).


One time a person had a bank he had been doing business with for many
years tell him "NO" for a $10,000 loan. The Lord led him to call another
bank. That bank approved a $40,000 loan for him at a lower interest rate
than his own bank had advertised. I'm so grateful, for the many times
God has closed doors to me, just to open them in the most unexpected
places. "The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He
delights in his way." (Psalms 37:23)


The Mountain top is glorious, but it is in the Valley that I will grow!

I'll say a prayer for you. Please know that something will come along for you, that will be just right. Turn this over to your HP he is always there when you really need him, and when you don't think you do.
Hugs coming to you

You're in my prayers, Gwen. I agree with the others, the Lord has something better in mind for you than the job you interviewed for. Keep looking ... a new
door will open soon.

Hugs coming your way.

these are your stumbling blocks right now. you will get thru them.i know you will. stay postive, there is a job out there & it will be a good one.sending hugs & prayers, hope

I will make it through this. I just had a hard week and need to look at all Im grateful for. I just talked to a really good friend and she has made me feel immensely better. It helped me work some stuff out by just talking about the events of the last couple of years. I feel better. Im gonna soak in my tub for a bit and go to bed. I will come back and post some more in the morning. Ive missed you guys all week. Thanks for letting me vent and the words of encouragement and support.


Hope4life,
Thank you very much for that post. I will keep this to keep looking back at this and plan to print this as soon as I get some ink for my printer. Thank you very much!

(((((Gwen)))))) I'm sorry sweetheart. I know things have been coming at you fast and furious...Please try not to project and stay in today. You're right...gratitude moves you forward. You're in my prayers. Hugs

Sorry to hear that Gwen.

Thing's will and do get better. Stay strong.

What I know, Gwen, is that I couldn't believe in the "things will get better" until I actually experienced that a few times.... until I had "evidence of".

What I hope you can do is remember this disappointment and down feeling so that you can see the "evidence of" when it happens. As things turn to a better solution, we can store up those "proofs" to lean on later... during future rough times.

((GwenMarie))

Experience has taught me that when God has other plans for me they are always better than anything I could dream of.

This wasn't meant to be, but it gave you something that will help you next time. And it will take time for your past to remain where it belongs, in the past. Your actions today will do that.

Disappointments are just detours, God's way of steering us to a better path and plan. He has something He wants you to be doing, perhaps someone He wants to put in your path or an experience He wants you to live and when the time is right, it will all unfold exactly as it should.

You are okay today and you will be okay tomorrow. Just stay in the light and never give up and one day you will look back on all of this and realize what a gift it was, strangely wrapped as it may be.

Hugs

Gwen,

I am sorry about the job, but, there are others out there. One will find its way to you.

Money makes the world go around, in my humble opinion you need to look at your finances and eliminate any luxury items, so that you can keep current on your probation fees, legal fees, etc. It is not an option, paying these fees is a must.

Keep looking for that job, it is out there.

As always, I am here for you my friend.

Dolly