but ... but ... I still LOVE him/her ... I've said that SO many times over the years - and I've heard so many others say it - that when I ran into this article (link in red below) - I HAD to share it. Somethings REALLY hit home - maybe it'll help me open my eyes - regarding my family as well as my x-AH - - - I hope a tidbit or 2 will help some of those reading this forum. The Stockholm Syndrome Bright Blessings, Blue |
Very interesting!!! |
I've read quite a few different things about this (Stockholm Syndrome) and I truly feel that it's beneficial in many ways. I think, often times, it is true of codependants. |
Thanks, BlueMoon Have wanted this info |
bluemoon, thanks for that link. so much of that hit home regarding this nightmare of a relationship i got myself into and couldn't for the longest time seem to get out of. |
Here's a link that woke me up: http://www.committment.com/goodhusband.html |
Thanks Blue. There is also an interesting article entitled "Identifying Losers..." on the following website http://www.drjoecarver.com/ |
hmmmmmmm - the ouchy part could be reading it as a question - "AM *I* those things?" :) good link! thank you! |
Huh. According to the Good Husband one, my AH had all the earmarks of a perfect husband. Every single item on the list. Now what does that tell us? What I'm going to take away from that is that I didn't do a bad job of checking him out first. I just don't know what went wrong afterwards. Maybe the list is missing items. |
Mushroom - my ex was all of those things too. For a while. Or is he an immature boy trying to maintain an image of being something he isn't? |
Holy schmoly !!!!! I've read it in AA's big book or the 12 &12. The alcoholic takes the family mentally and emotionally hostiage and verious other ways AA addressed this or pionts out these defects of charecter. What I experinced in the passed 6-8 months. and the way I view or feels about everything. I gotta let it sink in. It's just been chaotic and I'm glade to just get some rest and still be alive. Yet just reading about this syndrom , I can relate. :a102: I don't know..I don't know...I don't know..... I don't think, If I hate her there would be any good that can come out of it. |
What an informative website. I copied all of the articles on depression & treatment. Thank you so much for posting the link!!! |
Hey there mushroom,
Originally Posted by mushroom Huh. According to the Good Husband one, my AH had all the earmarks of a perfect husband. Every single item on the list. Now what does that tell us? What I'm going to take away from that is that I didn't do a bad job of checking him out first. I just don't know what went wrong afterwards. Maybe the list is missing items. My wife was spending 10-12 hours a day on the phone and web talking to married men. She never wanted to meet the wives, or have all four of us go out and meet in real life. I justified her behavior as caused by her insecurities and fear of rejection. When I finally did meet the wives I discovered the husbands all had a long history of affairs. Eventually I discovered that my wife was having affairs with those husbands. Mike :-) |
mushroom - "Huh. According to the Good Husband one, my AH had all the earmarks of a perfect husband. Every single item on the list. Now what does that tell us?" Interesting - when I went back and re-read that list - it kinda reeks of passive/aggressiveness to me. I think the answer may be in the Stockholm article: "... It has been found that four situations or conditions are present that serve as a foundation for the development of Stockholm Syndrome. These four situations can be found in hostage, severe abuse, and abusive relationships: The presence of a perceived threat to one’s physical or psychological survival and the belief that the abuser would carry out the threat. The presence of a perceived small kindness from the abuser to the victim Isolation from perspectives other than those of the abuser The perceived inability to escape the situation... " It's those "small kindnesses" that have always hooked me and kept me hooked - whether to my former AH - or to my alcoholic family. nutz - "Yet just reading about this syndrom , I can relate. I don't know..I don't know...I don't know..... I don't think, If I hate her there would be any good that can come out of it. " I totally relate to the "I don't know ... " part! Bits + pieces just really hit home for me - food for thought if nothing else. I don't think the opposite of Love is Hate. I think the opposite is closer to Apathy - and sometimes that feels ALOT like "Letting Go". DesertEyes/Mike - "My disease justifies her behavior, and I then make decision based on the _justifications_ instead of on the _observations_." Yeah! That's it exactly! It's like me reading the "Good Husband" article and thinking "Oh, how sweet ..." Then going back the next day and thinking "Sounds damned manipulative to me!" Which is more realistic?? I am learning that if I'm thinking "all good" or "all bad", I'm probably not quite sitting in the real world. I did something that my family (mom + 4 siblings) did NOT like (to put it mildly!) It was a MAJOR something. My punishment until I can "see the truth" (ie: THEIR side) is that they refuse to speak to me or have ANY contact with me. I'm pretty sure that I could crawl/beg my way back into their good graces - IF I admit that it was ME who was wrong - and grovel and plead forgiveness. I'm pretty sure that without my various support systems (including SR!), I will eventually believe that I miss my mommy more than I think I was right in what I did. That's who I've always been - pat me on the head and tell me I'm a good girl and I'm yours. I no longer believe that's love. :abcr: Blessings, Blue |
That's weird as Dessert Eyes stated.... it's perception. I'm being reminded again. I'm reading a book at the moment.. Reclaiming your self esteem...recovery for co-dendency and other addtions My perceptions...i'm not sure if it clear or not. My perception plays a big part on how I live. In Love is a chioce...the analogy used is "I'm wearing a twisted, scratched pair of shades..." I don't let everything or light in and don't see clearly. Also kind of like looking thur those old soda bottles. In AA, chapter 16.. " I have the glasses on backwards" Yet it's all normal to me, becuase I'm in that state. Even with the informations or data I have. When I'm in that state , i don't even know it. |
Yo Blue, Being raised as a child in a "toxic family" is a _perfect_ example of Stockholm Syndrome. When I first bolted from my biological family I had it _bad_. Every now and then I get "echoes" of those old childhood fears in present day disguise. What I found most liberating about Stockholm is that all the insanity I felt inside of me was _forced_ upon me against my will. I was born healthy, happy and sane. I can live that way today if I choose to. Mike :-) |
I was born healthy, happy and sane. I can live that way today if I choose to. What a concept hey?? :) I'm only just now learning the full extent of "family toxicity" - - - part of me is relieved - another is terrified --> how the hell do I go about learning to BE healthy, happy + sane?!?!? Answer --> baby steps Blue, baby steps. Hard to not start wondering if maybe there REALLY ISN'T an elephant in the livingroom - after all - NO ONE ELSE in my family can see it! MAYBE it really IS ME who's insane - not them??? Yeah, right. That's why I keep steping in elephant doo-doo up to my eyebrows - cuz the elephant's NOT THERE - - - :abcr: |
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