Holy ****
I have spent hours reading on here iincluding my last posts from last year, what a joke, I wrote exactly what I'm writing now, you all knew he would drink again and be back in old habits and here I am again.
Guess I'm going to the meeting on Monday then. Gosh freaks me out but I seriously don't think I have a choice unhappy marriage or change it by starting with a meeting.
Thanks again for all your awesome posts. He knows I'm over it again and now hasn't had a beer for 5 days and being super nice today, I know this pattern now it's the same as last year. Though I'm pretty darn sure he sneaked and 2 beers earlier (see even writing that I think ohhh he mustn't be too bad cause he stopped maybe Hess not that bad....my silly brain) BUT I'm trying not to care and think about it.
He told me once or twice! it's who he is he likes to drink it's who I am he says .......well guess what all good for you but I'm seriously not into anymore.

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I think you'll find a meeting to be a HUGE relief. To have a place where you can talk about your life the way it REALLY is.