I've been where you are and I'm separated almost 5 months and although it hurts and there are moments of helll or sadness, overall my life is better. We too have a 4 year old daughter and that is the ONLY thing that keeps me separated. I don't want her growing up thinking its ok to tolerate this behavior. Be strong for her, even when you're so dead inside. I initially had no strength for myself, but I do for her...

OK, you must protect yourself and your daughter. You must.

This is your Guardian Angel trying to protect you when you admit "He is very close to crazy". Please, find a safe haven. You don't know what he is capable of. He might not even know what he is capable of at this point.

Call a woman's shelter. I help one in my city, they are amazing. They get the wife and their children into safe houses. They give them therapy, help find the mom a job and stick by them until they are healthy and ready to be on their own.

I just have to agree with Thumper, violence combined with alcohol is so dangerous.

Please be safe!

It is really scary to take that step, I know, I've done it. No one deserves to live in fear. Please take Wishing Well's comments to heart. A DV shelter or outreach will help you and your daughter as a family - there is no need to be afraid of them.
I'm rooting for you in every way.
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MamaKit

Please seek help. I know it is so scary but you need to gather all the strength you have and keep you and your daughter safe. I remember the first time I went to the police after the violence it was one of the hardest things I've ever done but it actually made me stronger. There is help out there and these people want to help you.

They feel anger, shame, guilt, and resentments to a degree that non addicts cannot even fathom.