how to deal My husband was in rehab for 21 days, has been sober for 3 weeks, until I think today. I don't know for sure if he has been drinking, but the behaviors are that I saw tonight are way too similar. I wonder about his mental state. He has been saying how confused his mind is. Also I'm having a hard time dealing with the porn he downloads when he has been drinking which I found on a disc he forgot to take out. I just feel sick to my stomach when I found it. He has some sexual addiction or compulsion problems also. I'm just so tired of it all. I go to Al-Anon which helps, but when I'm in the middle of all the crap, I can't help think why do I stay? |
Welcome to the board and big HUGS to you. You are dealing with a lot of difficult things right now. Alcoholism is a hard enough thing to deal with. Having sexual addiction added to that just isn't fair. You are the only one who can answer the question "Why do I stay?" Sometimes it's hard to answer that one honestly. But you might want to give it some thought. It's hard to live in a relationship that brings you hurt feelings and frustration on a regular basis. You deserve a happy life, we all do. One day at a time, you will get there. Maybe you can start by thinking about what a happy life would be for you. And how you can work towards getting there. Be gentle with yourself, this is not always an easy task. When you are feeling overwhelmed by what you are dealing with, stop and say "I deserve a happy life. What small thing can I do today to work towards that goal?" In the meantime, stick around. This board is full of wonderful people who offer support, encouragement and lots of HUGS when you need them the most. Peace, Gabe |
Welcome shellyjd ! Gabe offered good suggestions to do things that would make you happy day by day. These boards offer plenty of love and support but decisions like we learn in alanon are ones that we come to on our own with our HP. We are all so different yet the same in that we love or have loved our alcoholic, we can share these experiences without judgment of a persons choices. Hope I was making sence, there have been times that I wish I didnt have to think or make a decision that someone would just do it for me ! Those are probably the times I didnt need to make any decision at all till my head was clear again. When you feel down and out or alone call someone or get back on the boards and connect with those who understand, its helped me so many times. take care of yourself liddy |
If you cannot figure out why you stay then it is not the time to leave. You can stay "One day at a time" and change your mind tomorrow. Go to your meetings, come here, educate yourself about addiction and most of all take care of yourself. For me the most important thing is to know what you are doing before you do it and that takes some time. If you do that there are no regrets. Hugs, JT |
Hi Shelly and welcome! Ditto to what others have said. Take it one day at a time. We can't make good decisions when our minds are in a confused state. When we start focusing on and taking care of ourselves, things become clearer, and it becomes easier to know the right decisions to make. Take care and keep coming back. :) Hugs, JG |
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