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Lexusgirl: How did it go today? Not sure if you've had your visit with your son yet today. If yes, how did it go? Praying all goes/went fabulously! |
Lex I'm waiting to hear as well. My thoughts are with you. gentle hugs |
Thank you for the sweet and caring post!:) I don't meet him until 4 at the therapists office. I'm SOOO nervous!! I'll update you all when I get back. I wish we had more then an hour to spend together.. Hope you all are doing well!! Hugs, LG |
You have my thoughts and prayers LG. |
Good luck sweetie! |
Hope the therapist's office is really, really big, because we're all going to be there with you! Hugs and prayers! Amy |
Yes, thinking of you-- all the best-- B. |
Originally Posted by Impurrfect
(Post 1788391)
Hope the therapist's office is really, really big, because we're all going to be there with you! Hugs and prayers! Amy Right now I'm 3 hours from home and I am sitting in my motel room feeling a little lost and as though this is very surreal. But, I'm being strong for my son. The therapist has already met with him and told me a little about him. He is almost 6 foot:c029: I hope I don't walk in and pass out when I see how he's changed. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers! :ghug2:ghug2 |
(((lexusgirl))) I hope you have a wonderful visit. |
Lex, have a wonderful time! Lily xxxxxxxxxxxxx |
Oooh, I know I've missed getting you best wishes ahead of time, Lexus, but I am sending great mojo through the air to the west for a meeting filled with laughter, love and a future of family between you and your son :) |
Hope it went well!!!!! (((HUGS))) |
Thank you again for this thread. It went well and he looks very very different. I was a little overwhelmed at all the changes that it seemed like he was a stranger, and he said the same about me. I'm really hurting right now as I realize now I missed out and I don't think he feels very close to me anymore. |
Been thinking of you too. Thanks for the update. I hope this is the start of you regaining a close relationship with your son. |
Originally Posted by lexusgirl
(Post 1788789)
Thank you again for this thread. It went well and he looks very very different. I was a little overwhelmed at all the changes that it seemed like he was a stranger, and he said the same about me. I'm really hurting right now as I realize now I missed out and I don't think he feels very close to me anymore. I hope you will be kind to yourself tonight. L |
LaTeeDa said it best!
Originally Posted by LaTeeDa
(Post 1788795)
Strangers are just friends waiting to happen. :) Do you have plans to meet again soon? |
Most everyone I've talked to regarding our meeting, said the love between Mother and Son is something that you will always feel. I'm afraid to tell you all how I really felt, but in order to work through this I will be honest with myself. I felt totally disconnected from him. I felt as though we were two strangers sitting in a room together. And the worst thing that I hate to say is, that I didn't feel the bond or the love between us. When I hugged him it seemed like I was hugging just someone else's child. Our old connection and bond is gone. I'm grieving this. I searched and searched his face and his actions and couldn't find the remnents or familiarity of my son. Am I a bad Mom for feeling numb and nothing? My heart literally aches right now and I feel sick. We scheduled one more meeting in two weeks with the therapist. |
Originally Posted by lexusgirl
(Post 1788827)
Most everyone I've talked to regarding our meeting, said the love between Mother and Son is something that you will always feel. I'm afraid to tell you all how I really felt, but in order to work through this I will be honest with myself. I felt totally disconnected from him. I felt as though we were two strangers sitting in a room together. And the worst thing that I hate to say is, that I didn't feel the bond or the love between us. When I hugged him it seemed like I was hugging just someone else's child. Our old connection and bond is gone. I'm grieving this. I searched and searched his face and his actions and couldn't find the remnents or familiarity of my son. Am I a bad Mom for feeling numb and nothing? My heart literally aches right now and I feel sick. We scheduled one more meeting in two weeks with the therapist. You are absolutely not a bad mom! I have zero experience for what you are dealing with, so the following is only my opinion. I would think that it is completely normal to feel disconnected from someone you haven't seen in years, regardless of the biological connection. Am I understanding correctly that you have never had a relationship, or not had one for many years? How could that possibly just "be there" without the nurturing and attention that relationships require? Give yourself a break on the expectations. It is what it is. The good news is that you get the opportunity to go from here. You have a "clean slate," so to speak. Try not to muddy it up with expectations and guilt over the past. ((((((LG)))))) L |
Oh Lexus--- (((((((HUGS))))))) Must be very surreal and very hard and complicated to process. My thoughts are with you--- :praying Peace, B. |
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