Job is making me miserable
 

In my recovery I've noticed that my job is a big roadblock. Mostly because my responsibilities require 100 percent perfection. (I'm an editor/proofreader at a place where everything is a mess and nobody cares, so I have to care even more and work even harder.

And it's getting to me, I feel I can't do it much longer :(

So could it be time to start job hunting?

I'll just note I am so thankful I have a good editor for my writing! He is worth his weight in gold to me.

You're in a position where you have employment, you're also in a position where you can look around for a job you really want without worrying how you're going to pay the bills till you find employment.

You've got the power to change this part of your life, good luck.

Yeah I am looking...but my codey tendencies are in the way. Misguided loyalty, fear of the unknown, overdeveloped sense of responsibility, caretaking, they all manifest at work it's sort of paralyzed me

Hey

Ya forgot your close parenthesis in your OP!

Just kidding...

I really believe that a sense of humor and self deprecation (good natured) is an essential part of recovery. Anyone striving for perfection better stay the H*ll away from this place!

warren

"I'm an editor/proofreader at a place where everything is a mess and nobody cares, so I have to care even more and work even harder."

Your codie tendencies are probably what led you to this job in the first place!! Who else but a codie proofreader would take a job at a messy place that taxes you beyond your professional responsibility and you have to do the most work!!

Angelus - I agree with all the other posters above - and I just want to offer you encouragement of this as a sign of further progress in your recovery!! Once we lift the veil and start seeing things how they really are and start changing small things in ourselves - all of a sudden a multitude of cr*p that we HAD been putting up with becomes unacceptable! So keep up the good work on yourself!
Peace,
B.

LaTeeDa had a similiar issue with her job which lead to a really interesting thread...

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rofession.html

Good luck with finding your neiche (sp??)!

Lily xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thank you all so much you made me smile! Bernadette is right this IS a part of my recovery :)

Thank god for this place :)

Thank you for this thread!
I have been struggling in my job too and this is really helpful.

Have this HUGE need for approval, wanting to feel important and valued it is not happening with my boss!

......And I'm still at my job, and still knowing that it's not where I want to be.

But, I've gained some understanding. I accept where I am even though I know in my heart it's not where I am (ultimately) meant to be. Gotta pay the bills, you know?

In the past, I probably would have done something impulsive--like quitting. But now, I can see how that would be self-sabotage. So, I keep going and doing the work, with an eye on other possibilities. Keeping my mind and heart open for signs and opportunities that I might have missed before. It's become almost like a spiritual practice to accept where I am and not feel like it is a life sentence, lol.

I am learning from the experience and it is preparing me for whatever comes next..........

L