Me too.

sleeping .. aauugghh .. i can rmbr many times , for a period of time , laying in bed with my eyes closed for hours pretending to myself that i was asleep ! how ridiculous . it helps me to free my mind before bed . cup of decaf tea . something positive to read . after about 20 - 30 mins turn off the lights . get into bed and start with my toes and concentrate on relaxing every muscle in my body on my way up to my head ... after a few days of this by the time i got to my calf muscle , i was alseep ! just a thought

I gave a CD of this type of relaxation tape to my AS when he went into recovery--it really worked for him.Now if I could just sleep as well!! I hear ya!!!!

Hey jc .. hows the meds working ? Hoping that you are feeling btr

Ummm....have you been reading my diary, Justcrash?

Hang in there - recognizing that you do these things (even if you hate yourself when you do) is a start. Before, you did these things and didn't even notice. Self-doubt can suck, but at least it shows reflection and insight... instead of blindly stumbling through life as so many of us used to do before we sought recovery.

The majority of us here have the same issues as you do. You are not alone.

I dunno my friend. It is probably too early to say. I have started working on my models again, forcing myself to stop and have "me" time. Right now, I am tired a lot, I am assuming that is the medicine. It is a tough road to toll. I appreciate you asking about me though, it means a lot.

Thats nice to know. I would be interested in hearing more codependents stories.

Hi JC:

Just dropped in to see how you are. Keep on posting

(you will hear more co dependent stories)lol. Not to be

funny. You do need to listen and share.

Parent:

You are a good mother, and have a reward in heaven.

I see you keeping up your spirits, and know your heart is

aching underneath. You have my admiration and respect.

Sleeping?

Oh gosh. What worked for me was building fortesses at first

with long winding roads by the sea and mountains. I

would go there, the long drive included with all the details,

smell of the rain, pines. In my fortess was a large white

bed with an eiderdown duvet and pillows. High barred

windows allowed sea breezes to billow long white

sheer curtains. I felt safe there. No one could find me.

No one could intrude. I slept.

Love,

:Flower111:

Sherry