I will never detox again. Just wanted to write that I am at work and can't believe I used to come in here in a panic, shaking and unable to tolerate even one hour. I actually enjoy work now. I notice things I never noticed before and don't run away from conversations. Also, I just realized I am the only person who tries to hide opening a can of pop at lunch (I used to put my hand over it to try and "mute" the sound when drinking so my neighbor wouldn't know how many beers I had). I also just crushed it before throwing it in the trash as paper-flat as I could. My coworker asked me why I do this. Thanks for the support all. |
I don't miss having something to hide :) |
It really does feel great to not have to hide anything :) |
Great realization BlueEyes, it's really good to hear that you are doing well. |
I lived at home for a year and started taking two minutes to take the tops off the bottles....reeeeeaalllly quietly I too feel a little self conscious sometimes cracking a can of soft drink in public. It's funny the associations we hang on to. P |
Good for you BBE, its nice being able to look people in the eye right? |
"I notice things I never noticed before.." something that blew me away: i loved( and still love) being in the outdoors. loved being out in the woods. a little time sober and i realized i never noticed the different shades of green out in the woods. its not all just green! |
I was saying this 100 days ago:
Originally Posted by behindblueyes
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Just wanted to write that I am at work and can't believe I used to come in here in a panic, shaking and unable to tolerate even one hour.
Originally Posted by behindblueyes
(Post 6315842)
I actually enjoy work now. |
I used to hide at work when I was detoxing all the time. |
I agree with tomsteve regarding the ability to discern various shades of color much better. It was almost like transitioning from black and white television to a color tv. |
I learned to open three beers simultaneous so if the neighbors were counting they would only have counted 1/3. So freeing being honest and sober. |
Originally Posted by Done4today
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I learned to open three beers simultaneous so if the neighbors were counting they would only have counted 1/3. So freeing being honest and sober. I also used to hate coming home in the summertime with beer and have my neighbors see me bringing it in everyday. Glad that pain in my a$$ task is in my past. |
I am still slowly getting rid of the cardboard cases I would fold and hide. I would never drink when I had my daughter, but she started finding them in the garbage after a weeked at dads. So, I started folding them and hiding them under my mattress. I can't believe how many are under there. |
I can't believe how much LESS trash I have. My recycle bin would be overflowing with beer cans every week - these days I have a hard time filling it with trash. |
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