behindblueyes

Just wanted to write that I am at work and can't believe I used to come in here in a panic, shaking and unable to tolerate even one hour.

I actually enjoy work now. I notice things I never noticed before and don't run away from conversations.

Also, I just realized I am the only person who tries to hide opening a can of pop at lunch (I used to put my hand over it to try and "mute" the sound when drinking so my neighbor wouldn't know how many beers I had). I also just crushed it before throwing it in the trash as paper-flat as I could. My coworker asked me why I do this.

Thanks for the support all.

BrendaChenowyth

I don't miss having something to hide

Shellster

It really does feel great to not have to hide anything

ScottFromWI

Great realization BlueEyes, it's really good to hear that you are doing well.

paulokes

I lived at home for a year and started taking two minutes to take the tops off the bottles....reeeeeaalllly quietly �� I too feel a little self conscious sometimes cracking a can of soft drink in public. It's funny the associations we hang on to.

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thomas11

Good for you BBE, its nice being able to look people in the eye right?

tomsteve

"I notice things I never noticed before.."

something that blew me away:
i loved( and still love) being in the outdoors. loved being out in the woods.
a little time sober and i realized i never noticed the different shades of green out in the woods. its not all just green!

Doug39

I was saying this 100 days ago:

I go back to work after a 3 month leave on Monday, February 6. I hope I end up saying this:

ThatWasTheOldMe

I used to hide at work when I was detoxing all the time.

SoberCAH

I agree with tomsteve regarding the ability to discern various shades of color much better.

It was almost like transitioning from black and white television to a color tv.

Done4today

I learned to open three beers simultaneous so if the neighbors were counting they would only have counted 1/3. So freeing being honest and sober.

Doug39

Every week I went to seven different stores to buy alcohol - one for every day of the week - so not to look like an alcoholic.

I also used to hate coming home in the summertime with beer and have my neighbors see me bringing it in everyday.

Glad that pain in my a$$ task is in my past.

behindblueyes

I am still slowly getting rid of the cardboard cases I would fold and hide. I would never drink when I had my daughter, but she started finding them in the garbage after a weeked at dads. So, I started folding them and hiding them under my mattress. I can't believe how many are under there.

Doug39

I can't believe how much LESS trash I have.

My recycle bin would be overflowing with beer cans every week - these days I have a hard time filling it with trash.