Messed Up Again :(
 

Hello All, I havent posted in a while. I been though hell and back. Lost my job. Got into a severe depression. I had to go back to my psychiatrist and he changed all my meds and I felt better. I started going to meetings everyday and I stopped drinking for like 7 days and I felt much better. The problem is I am still depressed because my ex boyfriend and I broke up. Its been about 6 weeks since I haven't seen him and I actually started trying to see a new guy. But last night I drank a whole bottle of wine and I texted him telling him that I loved him and I wanted him back. I did this while the new guy was in my house. I woke up feeling terribly depressed. I do not want to drink anymore. I am going to pick up a white chip and really surrender this time. I am glad to be back and posting again. Any support would be appreciated.

V.F.
Alcohol chemically is a depressant , get back in the game and stay in don't quit!
Each challenge you overcome without drinking will build your endurance and make you stronger !!

I'm sorry for all that's happened...but I'm glad you're back and have the makings of a plan Violet :)

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We're so glad to see you, Violetflame. Thankfully, you don't have to settle for that misery. You can have success this time.

Yes vf keep coming back.. i to lost a very important relationship and it saddens me deeply.. i dont know if you really want to get back with your ex or not (i dont know if i do either) but drinking will obviously only destroy any chance. We must get sober for ourselves. Id say your on the right track getting back to AA and i would recommend finding a sponsor.. the fellowship of AA is great but only one side of the triangle.. the steps is where the magic happens.. good luck!!

Welcome back violet, glad you are going to a meeting tomorrow. Don't forget some someone is always here if you need company or extra support.

VF,
good to see you back.

no matter what else is going on, putting your energy into sobriety will be a positive.

Welcome back, violetflame.

I am sorry about the loss of your job and the break-up with your boyfriend.

Let us know how the AA meeting goes.

We are here for you.

You can do it, violetflame, and you will feel so much better for it :-)

Even if I didn 't do anything wrong and my life is perfect I still get depressed after drinking- it does that xo
I had a bad break up last winter, I know how you feel xo
I'm still not completely over him but oh well.

Yes. I will not drink today. It only leads to my texting him and making a fool of myself when he obviously does not want to be with me. That relationship was not very healthy for me anyway. He did not drink and I did not drink when I was with him, but there were lots of other issues involved. I am going to a meeting today. I have a friend who is an ex addict and he has been coming with me. We do AA one day and NA the next. Both are helpful. But I do admit I drank last night. Not a whole bottle but 3 glasses. Enough to do some damage and text my ex again. He even told me to stop. I have to regain my self respect and let this reltionship go. If he really wanted to be with me he would. I need to work on myself. And a big part of that is to stop drinking and get healthy. Thank you for all your support.

I hope the meeting goes well, violet - I like your attitude. :)

yeah, let the old relationship go and probably the new one. Focus on your recovery, not romance.

So glad your back with us

Welcome back Violet!! :)