my story. I will try to keep it short, but ?
 

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Whats going on ESD?

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I"M not sure. I'm not drinking. but. I"M really out there. MY son has chemo. I have chemo. EVERYONE I know is asking me to help them. I"M about to explode dee. I've never felt this way. IM lost. I want someone to tell me what to do. I want my mother.....NO, I need my mother.

ES, is your Mom around? Is there anyone you can turn to? your Doctor, a support group? you sound overwhelmed.

You don't have to say "yes" to folks. no is good. Maybe you need some help prioritizing? See about getting some support f2f! And you can say No.

love from Lenina

You have more on your plate than any human being should have to endure. ((((ESD)))) from someone who is probably almost old enough to be your mother.

Try not to spread yourself too thin. (Others should be helping you.)

my mom died 2 years ago. I miss her dearly. I wont do anything stupid...becuase I just wont...its not who I am, or who we are. we deliver. I deliver. I don't do support groups..because, well, I'm 'us'...we just survive. its who we are. I'll get on. But thank you guys for being here. its nice to cry to an actual person, not a wall. . I realy appreciate it. .

I am sorry to hear about your Mom. We are never too old to want our mothers when we are feeling bad, are we?

What's wrong with support groups? You might have the chance to help someone else while they help you back!

I'm sorry about your mom. It's hurts a lot, I know. My grandma has been gone since 1999, her anniversary is coming up and I'm feeling those laps of grief and missing her.

Leigh is right, you have a very heavy load just now. sometimes the part of being brave is knowing when it's time to take someome's hand for a bit. Please don't feel like you have to walk this path alone. There's no shame.

Love from Lenina

there's always support here. Maybe you can find some local support groups for yourself too?

I was bought up on 'never ask for help' too.

I think it's ridiculous to be honest. Asking fir help is not a sign of weakness :)

Noone is ever completely self sufficient.

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thanks d..............im about done. im so tired.

but because its me.....i will always be here..

guys..IM about to take you all up on offers. I think I"m ready. I am busted at this point.

i lost my mum coming up for 5 years ago some days hits me like a ton of bricks it was between aug to nov that she was diagnosed and died

loosing someone at the moment

if u want to talk pm ? i know your pain everybodys wants wants when u feel at breaking point

i need my mum too im 32 lost her at 27 to terminal cancer

if u wannna talk ?

thank you... I will.

Hi E glad you are posting and here. Some of us find it very hard to say no and to ask for help. I struggle with that too and some days things seem overwhelming. Sorry you are going through all of this - it must be very hard. Just keep taking one day at a time and hopefully you can see some light at the end of the tunnel soon. Do you have any friends or family or neighbours you could ask for some help??

ESD, your story is a powerful resource and it would be a real loss for many of us, and yourself as well, if you try to keep it short in the telling. Give yourself a chance to share. I know for myself, there is much to appreciate in your experiences. It's not at all easy to share, to relate, to offer onto others our experiences, strengths, and hopes. And yet, in the sharing we also lighten our own sense of burden. Our despair is lessened as we trust in others understanding our challenges, our successes, and yes, even our failings.

I hope and trust you can bring yourself to share a bit of your story. Its unlikely to come out all organized and settled. More likely to be all over the map. No worries. Feel at ease among your SR friends. :)

Thanks robby, I will. today the day seems brighter, I awaken with new hope and as usual, I assume today will be better than yesterday.

sending you prayers, love, and hugs

ESD, hugs and prayers your way

ESD - there are natural ways to process emotions and stages. Acceptance is usually last. It really helps to have someone to talk to and I am not necessarily suggesting on an open Forum but that is there too. I hope you have someone in your camp you can share to work things through.

If you are grieving your mother, even two years later it might be helpful to go through these stages naturally in order to process. I see a therapist weekly and its refreshing to work things through.

Anyhow, thoughts and prayers, as always SR will have your back!