drinking dreams
 

Anyone ever had this: woke up this morning very early, nothing strange in that, but was lying there trying to get back to sleep and started to think about the terrible hangover mornings when I was drinking. The head/face aches, terrible palpitations and anxiety with my heart pounding so hard I thought it would burst out of my body. I would lie there and try and get back to sleep to escape the pain but could not....wondering "what have I said, did I row with husband" etc etc, coupled with the guilt of the booze anyway, feeling so dreadful and panicky, get up, take a couple of tabs to feel better, feeling shaky, actually the feeling is like the world is going to end.

If I have any doubts, I never, ever, want that life back again. So utterly grateful that I don't have to drink again and I so thank God for keeping me sober another day. Thanks to everyone on SR. xx Sober Lillyknitting

I think about that a lot actually. Every day I remember some part of the awful life it was and feel such intense gratitude that it's over.

I like the end of your story. :)

Me too. :)

I had drinking dreams about a month into my sobriety, and that would cause me to wake up and feel similar. I would be so mad at myself in the morning because I was certain that I had drank, when I actually hadn't. Now that I'm starting over I know they'll come back, but I'm ready this time.

drinking dreams are very common and i still have them from time to time.. i am Always glad it was just a dream. i enjoyed reading your post here. it has to get Bad Enough before it gets better!

With 20 yrs. of recovery living and breathing it,
it seeps into every pore of my being. My mind,
my soul, my subconscience. So when I dream
my program continues to work. I wake up smiling
that even tho alcohol was present, I was able to
say no to it and help another by sharin my ESH
with them. It's pretty awesome how that happens
even when im asleep. :)

Iv always been a vivid dreamer. Im on day 8 and Iv dreamt of drinking about everynight. There is always shame and guilt. Im happy to wake up and realize it was just a dream.

Regarding the first post, geez, thats exactly how I felt waking up after a night drinking, it was awful. I never want to feel that way again. Grateful I dont have to.

I also had very vivid and what seemed very real dreams about bad things that happened from drinking. Only had 2 of them about a month after I quit drinking as well. They seemed to contain parts of my life that I was angry, sad, disappointed and afraid of all wrapped up into one dream. Like all the events in my life that I had issues with and the anger that was present when me and my Girlfriend would argue and just pure nastiness was all wrapped in to one dream. When I woke up from them, I had thought them real and it was like waking up from a nightmare. I found a great counselor and I asked about them. He said they are called "using dreams" and very common in the first 1-6 months of sobriety, some people have lots of them, some never do. I just know the 2 that I had scarred the crap out of me in how ugly the were.

Last night I dreamed that I woke up and found 20 or so empty beer bottles in my kitchen, and (still dreaming) felt hungover and guilty for drinking them. In the dream I was worried about having to come to SR and report that I had fallen off the wagon.

:lol:

Drinking dreams
 

I have them almost every night - and I go into rehab next Wednesday for 5 weeks, ugh?

Any advice, my fellow alcoholics out there?

I bought 3 crossword puzzle books to occupy my mind, at least a little bit.

Kelly

Only advice I can give is to remember them as hard as it may be to want to. What I got from the 2 that I had was a very powerful reminder of why I wanted to quit drinking, why I made the decision to. Kind of a reinforcement if you will. It is hard at first, but like I said once you get past the first step, it does get easier, just give it time.
There is a saying I came across once, "The only difference between stumbling blocks and stepping stones is how you use them" I think it was a poster I saw. good thought. Good Night all.

If you guys like, I have a blog that I made about my experience, it is listed below, the myowndecember.com.There are no ads, no BS, just what I have learned and what I am doing now. Check it out if you like. I use to write in a journal, now that is kind of my journal.

I thank God for everything...good, bad or indifferent. I also thank him for the wonderful gift of fellowship -one prayer at a time.

~God bless~