All this is making me thirsty...
 

The more I read here the more I feel like having a nice glass of something alcoholic and watching tv or watching the fire or watching the stars or anything. The husband went hunting (again) and left me here. I didn't want to go hunting....I don't hunt and only want the meat in small packages that are labeled. I just pigged out on chocolate chips for cooking....something to wash them down sounds good...I haven't felt like this for 40 something days! Must be the moon....:lala

Hi LTT

With respect, I don't think the problem is SR...
I've read your posts and blogs...you've been battling with these feelings for a while. Sounds to me like you're lonely, maybe a bit sad...that's never a good place to be for an alcoholic.

It's up to us to do something about it, LTT. We deal with these feelings in a healthy way - or they deal with us. Thats the bottom line really.

In my experience, white knuckling doesn't really cut it - not as a long term solution.
What are you doing about it LTT?

D

Not sure where you are getting this. I guess I am lonely when husband is hunting but I am not sad. Yes, sad about my mother dying but I believe I am over that. You know nothing about me and you shouldn't assume anything.

So all of these desperate people posting about how they can't stop drinking, can't stop shaking, keep relapsing, etc -- makes you want to relive that time in your life? I guess their message has the opposite effect on me. It makes me want to stay AWAAAAY from a drink.

But I totally identify with feeling lonely when the husband is gone, out doing one of his "man things". The last time he left for a weekend, I nearly fell apart. I wanted to drink so bad!

A few things helped me through that:

1) I posted my drinking plans on SR, and a bunch of people reminded me of how bad I felt when I used to drink.

2) I went to an AA meeting so I didn't feel so alone there.

3) I made a little project for myself to keep me busy (it was almost Halloween, so I went to the arts and crafts store and made a little Halloween decoration ...). It was a little thing but it gave me something to think about OTHER than wanting to drink.

4) I wrote out a list of things I was grateful for. Corny, yeah, and it started out with stupid crap like "I have internet access". But the more little things I listed, the better I felt.

Anyway, those feelings of wanting to drink come and go for me. It's normal to feel like you do.

I'm glad you're here and I hope you keep posting.

The good news is, for most of us this feeling does go away. I am 10 months sober, and a drink never sounds good. The thought of a glass of wine or a beer actually repulses me now. hang in there.

:hug:
I sure hope you resisted the urge to return to the bottle
as a coping mechanism for your life.

Have yiu thought of exploring SMRT recovery?

SMART Recovery®|Self Help for Alcoholism Drug & Other Addiction

The longer you stay sober...the easier it is....:yup:

I have left AA meetings with the thought of pulling in the liquor store, but never have. I left a lot more of them NOT wanting to pull into the beer store.
I have been sober 8 months now, and I still think about drinking, but the thought doesn't last very long. Most of the time I don't think about it.
I guess I'm just trying to say hang in there. It does ger easier as time goes on.
Fred

I used to blame everything but myself for urges and cravings too. It helped me take no responsibility for my thoughts and eventual actions just about every time I did end up turning to a bottle and getting drunk.

I also highly doubt SR is the reason for your cravings, but if you truly feel it is.. take a break.

I can guarantee you're going to face much bigger challenges in your life than a little sadness and lonliness and being that affected by some words on a recovery website, that will rock your world in terms of staying sober. Those are the times you prepare for. How is your recovery treatment/program/whatever going for you? What can you be doing differently to prevent feeling how you are now, again?

This is why I don't go to AA - believe it or not AA triggers me because I have a hard time sitting around listening to people talk about their problems and not drinking over those problems. I think it's a fine program, please don't misunderstand my intentions...it's just not a fine program for me.

But I feel that way too quite a bit and when I do I take a break from SR or anything causing my trigger.

"All things in moderation, moderation in all things."