I Really Need To Stop...
 

Hi Guys,

Well I guess first of all I should give abit of background...

I started drinking when I was 14, my dad had just died and I'm not sure if I used that as an excuse to drink or it was an escape... but the fact is I started to drink. At first the general teen binge, but soon started during the week... sometimes in school with my friends or at home alone (the joys of fake ID!) My friends by the way dont have any problem with drinking.

Anyway, by 16 I was thrown out of my mums house (due to drink) as I got unessasarily vilent with my step father (my mum was married before my dad died).

Well living on my own at 16 while still in school was obviously a big excuse to drink and party... so I carried on.

I got involved with a guy who was older then me, and spent alot of his time out in the bars and clubs (again he doesnt have a problem) and so drinking became the norm.

My drinking has got worse and more requent ever since, and I broke up with the guy I was with... probibly drink related, although it was a mutual desision I think the drink was the reason it didnt work.

I ended up moving south about 200 miles... from all my family and friends (apart from one guy I knew down here) and guess what... the drink carried on an he departed.

I have drank every day for as long as I can remember now, I dont drink all day but as soon as I finish work on on the drink... with the intention to get drunk. If I get held back at work.. then I drink quicker when I get home to make up for the lost time. I went to the doctors about 6 months ago because I was worried, he said I definatly need to get help and give me a couple of numbers and a liver test.

I got the results back and he told me I had some sort of enzyme elevation and stuff. I decided I would get help, but guess what... I drank instead.

Im 21 now and still drinking daily. After work I will drink 8 cans of carling. If im not in work god knows how much I drink... I start when I wake up.

Most times I wake up on the sofa at 4 in the morning and drag maself into bed... usually I dont even remeber this - obviously my partner does.

Well, ive been here before sending a message on this forum once, I never logged on again but well ive recently started to feel diffrent and really need and want help.

I get really bad prickles all over my body, a couple of times a day. Some times so unbarable that when im at work I will have to go toilet to scratch and bare it.
I constantly shaking untill I have a drink... and sweat all the time too...
My energy is always none existant... which in my role at work is a big no...


Reaso of this... is how do I help myself... whats the best way... :o(

Your doctor is the best person to advise you on detox options.

I'm glad that's what you're considering now.

Welcome back.

hello crashed and welcome to sr.your story dosnt sound too dissimilar to mine,in as your drinking habits.i am 37 now and it took me until the begining of this year before i finally realised i really and honestly wanted to quit.i had tried various times to stop drinking on my own after one disaster after another and every time i went back and drank again.this time i undesrstood that to stop and stay stopped things had to drastically change,i had to change.so i went to AA (i had been before but didnt if im honest want to stop).i have been sober just over 9 months.the craving for alcohol left me very quickly and i rarely think of it now.i got a sponsor in AA and got on the 12 step recovery programme.my life has changed beyond all recognition.i am never lonely or irritable or discontent.i have been gifted with a programme for living and see the world through new eyes.my life was just like yours,trying to count the cans and just have so many so i would be ok for work the next day,my money was counted in cans.but there came the day when i lost control of trying to control if that makes sense? i was obsessed.that obsession has been removed.my life is great now,i love it and feel useful.have you thought of giving AA a try?

In my experience i sweated... itched.....hallucinated......when my body had ran out of its fix.....alcohol.
please consider going to the doctors and being honest about your drinking.
they will help and advise the best route to get over the physical symtoms withdrawing from alcohol....

oh yes,you definatly sound like you need medically detoxing!

Welcome!!!

Keep coming back, you'll find a lot of support here.

I just joined, but welcome.

Hi again Crashed....:wavey:

Here is a link to your earlier post...7 months ago

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post2189483

Please do check it out especially Truckers info.
I sincerely hope this will be the time for you to quit.
:hug:

friendofbilland .... Welcome to SR and our Alcoholism Forum
:wave:

:welcome