rock bottom
 

I don't know if I hit rock bottom but I just have to get my story off my chest right now. If the typing is bad it's because my hands are shaking soooo badly.

a year ago I drank too much and got on my motorcycle blacked out

I hit a car head-on and should be dead.

I am still alive with multiple injuries but can still walk and function (mostly) like normal people

I then started right back up with drinking but had an ample supply of potent narcotics which I used, abused and will still probably take. Snorting oxycontin cost me my marriage and I even had to be rushed to the hospital once for an overdose-type situation due to mixing oxycontin with alcohol

(i will try to be brief)

so now I am back to drinking...all day and supplementing with oxycontin. when the drugs run dry I drink more 750ml of vodka and beers. so, upwards of 14 drinks a day. when I do this cycle of binge drinks and drugs I lose weeks of time and memories, then sober up for a week and start all over.

I lost track of enough time to scare my ex who Sunday call the police to ask them to check if I was dead in my bed. which they did, harassed me and saw how appalling my living space is. I lose so much track of time I don't even really notice the mess until I am sober.

I am mortified and don't know where to turn. This is my second day of not drinking and I get all the worst symptoms of withdrawals. Some of them aren't even in any text I can find on abuse.

help

Hi Kasey, I am so sorry to hear of your troubles, can you see a doctor about your detox? It can be very dangerous based on the levels of alcohol you have been drinking.

Please make a call to a doctor or better yet go to the hospital.

Keep posting & let us know how you are doing.

Take Care,

NB

Here is what some others have experienced here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

Of what I understand, it might not be the best to actually stop drinking abrubtly if you've been drinking a considerable amount for a prolonged period. Sounds like you're right in that timeframe after stopping where withdrawal can hit the hardest. Basically, don't hesitate to check yourself in somewhere if at all possible.

check yourself in to a detox. I am six months into sobriety, and it is truly a better way to live.

my vote goes to detox.. ER, Salvation Army, whatever.. just get help.

Check your @ss in somehwere! I don't think you will fight an effective battle without some serious intervention.......And I hope you will listen to others on here, too.

I'd suggest going to the ER as alcohol withdrawal can be dangerous. And remember, if you don't start drinking again you never have to go thru this hell again.

I totally agree.....de toxing from alcohol can be very dangerous
plus you have been abuseing oxycontin.

Please get medical assistance to be safe and sober too.
:yup:
Welcome back to SR

3rd day in...I have been through worse. I have had to go through this so many times...yech...of course I can't think that I have slept at all since starting to detox this time. so I am loopy as all get out. sleep will come.

thanks for all your support

oh and I am going to see a doctor who deals with addiction next monday also.

Are you planning to get into a structured recovery program too?
AA is a tremendous resource for living sober.

Keep posting....you too can find a healthy sober future...:yup:

best of luck my friend. it doesn't have to be like this! everytime i chose to drink it affects someone around me, and 99.9% of the time it is not good. at all, ever.