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Old 07-14-2009, 09:54 AM
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rock bottom

I don't know if I hit rock bottom but I just have to get my story off my chest right now. If the typing is bad it's because my hands are shaking soooo badly.

a year ago I drank too much and got on my motorcycle blacked out

I hit a car head-on and should be dead.

I am still alive with multiple injuries but can still walk and function (mostly) like normal people

I then started right back up with drinking but had an ample supply of potent narcotics which I used, abused and will still probably take. Snorting oxycontin cost me my marriage and I even had to be rushed to the hospital once for an overdose-type situation due to mixing oxycontin with alcohol

(i will try to be brief)

so now I am back to drinking...all day and supplementing with oxycontin. when the drugs run dry I drink more 750ml of vodka and beers. so, upwards of 14 drinks a day. when I do this cycle of binge drinks and drugs I lose weeks of time and memories, then sober up for a week and start all over.

I lost track of enough time to scare my ex who Sunday call the police to ask them to check if I was dead in my bed. which they did, harassed me and saw how appalling my living space is. I lose so much track of time I don't even really notice the mess until I am sober.

I am mortified and don't know where to turn. This is my second day of not drinking and I get all the worst symptoms of withdrawals. Some of them aren't even in any text I can find on abuse.

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Old 07-14-2009, 10:01 AM
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Hi Kasey, I am so sorry to hear of your troubles, can you see a doctor about your detox? It can be very dangerous based on the levels of alcohol you have been drinking.

Please make a call to a doctor or better yet go to the hospital.

Keep posting & let us know how you are doing.

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Here is what some others have experienced here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
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Old 07-14-2009, 10:03 AM
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Of what I understand, it might not be the best to actually stop drinking abrubtly if you've been drinking a considerable amount for a prolonged period. Sounds like you're right in that timeframe after stopping where withdrawal can hit the hardest. Basically, don't hesitate to check yourself in somewhere if at all possible.
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Old 07-14-2009, 10:22 AM
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check yourself in to a detox. I am six months into sobriety, and it is truly a better way to live.
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Old 07-14-2009, 10:52 AM
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my vote goes to detox.. ER, Salvation Army, whatever.. just get help.
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Old 07-14-2009, 10:57 AM
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Check your @ss in somehwere! I don't think you will fight an effective battle without some serious intervention.......And I hope you will listen to others on here, too.
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Old 07-14-2009, 11:59 AM
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I'd suggest going to the ER as alcohol withdrawal can be dangerous. And remember, if you don't start drinking again you never have to go thru this hell again.
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Old 07-14-2009, 12:01 PM
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I totally agree.....de toxing from alcohol can be very dangerous
plus you have been abuseing oxycontin.

Please get medical assistance to be safe and sober too.

Welcome back to SR
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Old 07-14-2009, 12:06 PM
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You don't have to
be in your world,
thinking your thoughts,
doing your things.

There is help available!
Seek It.

Good Luck
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Old 07-15-2009, 01:09 PM
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3rd day in...I have been through worse. I have had to go through this so many times...yech...of course I can't think that I have slept at all since starting to detox this time. so I am loopy as all get out. sleep will come.

thanks for all your support

oh and I am going to see a doctor who deals with addiction next monday also.
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Old 07-16-2009, 06:09 AM
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Are you planning to get into a structured recovery program too?
AA is a tremendous resource for living sober.

Keep posting....you too can find a healthy sober future...
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Old 07-17-2009, 06:27 PM
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best of luck my friend. it doesn't have to be like this! everytime i chose to drink it affects someone around me, and 99.9% of the time it is not good. at all, ever.
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