Is this something you can discuss with your doctor?
Often people choose inpatient treatment because physical withdrawal can be dangerous.Others choose it for a safe haven to give themselves time to learn new skills and adjust to being clean.And of course,some choose it for both those reasons and more.
My own feeling is that you should give yourself the best possible chance for recovery.Don't let fear of failure or a feeling of unworthiness hold you back.You are worth it,and you can make it.
Believe me,I was in pretty hopeless condition when I got into recovery.I was broken down in every sense of the word.My brain was wrecked.I was 30 pounds underweight, and malnourished.I had lost everything.If one as broken as me can recover,so can you.There is hope.Keep posting
phoenix