Hey ****...in my first year of going to meetings, I struggled because I thought I had to put a face or mental image with a HP. However, the Big Book says to choose a God you can understand. The definition of God or HP is different for everyone. For some, it's Christ, Allah, Buddha or whatever...heck I listened to a speaker once who said that for the first four years of his sobriety a huge cottonwood tree was his HP...the man jumped a fence and stumbled through a rough pasture to get to his tree and sit under it and talk to it. And then, as someone else mentioned, for some it is the group itself...alone I am powerless, but two or more alcoholics/addicts gathered together is defintely a power greater than myself.