Hey mertyl...
I was in your spot yesterday.....STRESSED about money waiting for the phone to ring with some jack*** on there asking for money... I too made some bad decisions and got in bad debt because of my drug use,,,
Then I sat back and thought what good is all this worrying doing me...I am cranky, snapping at everyone for what ????
some PAST due accounts...and i said Yep they are PAST and I am now living for my future so ...be gone worry and yes it may be awhile until I am Back on my feet but at least i am doing it and doing it without using....That is my stock...it is like I watch it grow everyday...my sobriety...just keeps rising... I am alive (THANKFULLY) and I have a family who loves me....I cannot change the past ...but, I can control my future and in time I will be in a better place financially but for now... i am just glad to be in a better place mentally....
Peace ~ B