((( Beernut ))) It does sound like a familiar story... I've been there with the self employment. It was damn hard to put myself to work when I had a raging hangover, my ears felt like they were being drilled and there was an ice cold beer or a tad of scotch and ice in the fridge. Off I was, needing another day to just chill out before I went to work.
I don't set myself up for disaster anymore and the obsession to drink DOES diminish and even disappear. There was a time I couldn't fathom my life without a drink. Now I wouldn't even consider booby trapping my life again.