Congratulations!
Musky!! I'm so glad you're here! Please know you are not alone. There are so many wonderful people on this site who will always offer support, advice, straight-talk or whatever else you need. Congratulations for having the courage to submit that first post.
Please keep AA in mind as you formulate a plan. The support of other alcoholics in the flesh cannot be matched (and the applause you get for being an alcoholic is awesome -- so full of love and hope!) The program does work if you work it!
Keep posting!!
Saz