Chicken little....first off welcome to SR. Second...let me say congratulations on 5 months clean. The things you wrote are so true. I'm letting it fester. I can see that but the stresses around me make it so easy for me to let that happen. I printed out the twelve steps and have started with step one. I'm working the steps now and yes it is helping. I have a Big Book and I'm reading that too. I am learning recovery all over again it seems like. If the cravings would go away and the fantasies of using would leave my brain I would feel so much better though....
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