Hi Hope,
I did my eighth step with my sponsor and am getting ready to make my first amends. I've needed the guidance of my sponsor who has done the eighth and ninth to help me through this. The guilt is there for me, but much less since doing my fourth and fifth. Those have helped me understand my disease and begin to forgive myself for the bad things I did while drunk.
Luckily the steps can lead us through repariing or at least living in peace with this kind of damage.
Jup.