Hope
Im with GP on this one, I would give him a call, write an email and tag it so you know when it has been read, stop by his house etc. Whichever you decide, start off with something like "Please, just give me 3 minutes of your time" and then tell him what you have told us. That you are in recovery, that it wasnt the real you that night etc. Then leave it to him to decide if things can be patched up. Meanwhile, try to forgive yourself, your right, it wasnt you that night, it was your disease. Stay strong!!!
Love Liss