Interconnectedness. We're all part of the Whole. Humans are social beings. We're human. And interdependent. Independent loner-types though some of us may be. It's a cornerstone of recovery, getting outside the confines of your own head, your own best thinking, to allow external input to enter in. So to receive the benefits of interconnection, so to know you're not alone in this. Really GreenTea, your honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness, inspire ME. I've been at this awhile now, and still so resistant to open up to others, follow the direction/ directive of others, trust others...while knowing the extreme relevance of doing so, otherwise we stumble blind through unfamiliar territory, as we try to move away from the old familiar habits of which we're accustomed (escape, evading, avoiding, isolation, deception, denial, etc.), toward recovery of mind and self and life itself.
You really have a lot to offer, and a lot to gain through sobriety and recovery. Very good to see you here.