Welcome to SR Greentea!
I'm so glad you found this place as it's a great supplimental source of support.
I relate a lot to your initial fears. I was so afraid when I finally admitted to my alcoholism. It is a scary thing. Big time. But look at you... you are on the right path now. Not everyone who ends up an alcoholic can come to that realization. You have. So now you are doing something about it. That takes courage and tells of an internal spirit that you may not even know you have yet. You can do this and you don't have to do it alone.
So welcome!
Suga