hi! thanks for replying, actually i did read ur post . it made me realise some of the stuff i put my mom through in the past. i have many mental diagnosis and have been hospitalized over 20 times while i was a teenager. most of those admissions were for 6 months or more. i don't know how my mom made it through all the stuff i did. and she still cares and still is right there when i need it most. i wouldn't be here today if it weren't for her. she is the one person i know will always have my back no matter what. and that means the world to me.