Usually frustration does happen when we are trying to get clean. At the end of the using we are fighting within our selves knowing that once again we have retreated to the using, instead of dealing with the feeling that are going on. In other words not wanting to face life on life's terms. This is where the sponsorship is so desperately needed.
During the course of my recovery, most of us have found out that if we are not truly honest with just one person in our lives, then we are in-fact not into recovery. Honest is the first part of the program, to be able to get honest takes a lot of work. Being aware of it is half of the battle. Some of us refuse to believe that certain parts of us exist, until we see someone exactly like us. We are reflections of each other, that is the beauty of the program.
Usually when we do find a sponsor, we realize that we don't truly know anything. It is always best to find someone that is a closed mouth friend. You want someone to encourage you, yet you also want someone who is going to tell you that you are full of Sh!t. Most of us don't like that part, we always want someone to tell us how good we are doing, yet, we have found out that if there is no pain in recovery, then we usually are not recovering. Just my opinion.
Love vic
