you are right it is a beautiful day, i am kind of having a hard time noticing it though, it is good to feel that your 2 fathers did love you the best that they knew how, i only wished that i could feel that way about my h, it sure woud help the situation. i do feel that i was used and i guess i have to find a way to get over that,huh. i have to keep reminding myself that god know where i am and how i feel and he knows how to take care of situations and feeling like these,
sometimes i do reflect on those sad memories but at the end of the day when i can snap myself out of it, i always come out a little sronger. what the enemy does for harm, god uses to work things out for good. it just don't always look like it in the moment.