don't klike the way i feel
i woke up thinking about my h kind if heavy
i find myself trying to think of reasons to call and need instead, reasons not to call.
i feel bad for the kids being that father's day is tomorrow but it take a little bit more than a title to be a father
20 yrs of marriage is a long time and to not hear a word makes me sad, then i think what do i want to accomplish by hearing a word. doesn't he care at least about the kids.
will this feeling ever go away
did i cause his infidelities by not having relations with him. i tried at first but it seem to have done no good. he would still binge 4-5 days at a time and i think that i knew what that meant, but i feel guilty for that, and can't find no peace in this area.
am i suppose to give him an explaination again. i thought that i had but if i don't know how to express myself well then maybe he did not understand why i did what i did.(made him leave)
should i write a letter and if so, what do i plan to accomplish! i lost my temper when i made him leave, i feel guilty for that too.
can somebody help me sort out what i maybe feeling,encoragement or the frying pan. i don't like this feeling