maybe thats why my h called me long winded. it takes me a long time to explain what i mean i guess because, i have to hear the details before i can understand, and i am thinking that maybe others need to too. if i'm not being understood,then
i'll quit and internalize. over the yrs l've lost a lot of esteem, second guessing myself and feeling that what i feel does not really have any meaning or doesn't count.
here in sr, i get the chance to try and if i can't, i don't feel as bad as i would if f2f. i learned not to like me and now i have the chance to un do this and i just can't allow myself to go into myself. this is a vey painful thing at times.
the bad thing about this that i never knew that there maybe others like me.
thanks morning glory for sharing this with me. i feel like i am gonna get better inspite of myself, thanks