well I am not seeing a therapist right now, it is just the doctor i see for 15 minutes every few weeks. i was in therapy for almost 3 years, however i stopped 6 months ago when someone very close to me passed away. plus the therapist and i kinda "grew" apart and i don't think she could help me anymore. my doctor has wanted me to start therapy again with someone new, but i don't feel it's going to help. i don't feel there is anything they can tell me that i don't already know.
yeah, i have seen that movie. and yeah, that is something i think about every day, that i was never meant to be born, to live here. people say 'oh god put you here' or something like that. but i believe that god gave people free will, and because of that free will my mom and dad had sex one time and guess what! there i was, not by some miracle but because of their choice to be together. i never had a say about being here, so why should i have to stay?
ugh...in case you can't tell, it's not a good day. my head is too full tonight.