Hugs to you too honey and try your best to get some rest. I know it's hard. Not sure how "wise" I am b/c my life's a mess right now too. There is light at the end of the tunnel, but as I think Minnie mentioned once before- I hope it's not a train LOL!!!
Take good care of yourself and don't beat yourself up over all this. Tomorrow (today actually) is a new day. The sun will come up just as it always does and you can start anew. Or as Walt Whitman would say, "the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse!"
Goodnight and I'll check in tomorrow.