Hey alissa,
I can relate to how you are feeling.....it hit me like that right after I got a year too....I got really bored with my reocvery and was plagued with using thoughts and the like.....I just forced myself to go to meetings (try going to different meetings) and forced myself to call my sponsor and write on steps......and eventually it passed and the cool thing is that now I am even happier in my recovery that I was before.....all growth is accompanied by pain.
You and I are in a dangerous place, the year between 1 and 2 is really risky....lots of people go back out b/c of those same feelings...you don't have to, though....keep on fighting and you'll get through these feelings......
your friend from down the street..
Blake