I called a gal that I met at one of the meetings (AA). I'm meeting her at one tonight. She said what you all have been saying - that if my xbf is a trigger (excuse) for me to drink - then avoid him.
Patty - you sure do know me LOL - I am counting the minutes until (if) he calls, I called the jail and they said he is in the medical ward now of the jail. I am torturing myself - with visions of this women, of what if he gets sober after I've dumped him etc. Yes, I know it's insane thinking.