I guess I want to ask him why - why coulnd't he at least try to stop drinking - that was all I asked of him - instead he choose to let his life get further in the gutter and then try to find comfort from some old bar hag. I know he is so gone now - that he is a chronic liar and the rational side of me says it's best that he's not calling, but I feel that if he is in jail he is not drinking so maybe I can get an honest answer out of him. Like I said, my head is so screwed up now - the only good thing is alcohol is the LAST thing I want right now